BUBBLES WORLD :)

it looks better sitting up with the light shinning on it. you can see the glass

If I turned around and walked away, would you notice I'm gone,
Would you even care?
When you look at me, do you see the smile on my face,
Or do you see the tears I fight to hold inside?
Do you see a strong, willful woman I portray,
Or the scared little girl who never quite goes away?
If I broke down and lost all control,
Would you know how to handle me,
Would you hold me 'til I stop shaking,
Kiss away all of my tears?
Would you know how to lift me up
From a place far below recognition?
You see a loving woman,
But I'm so much more.
I'm sad,
I'm lonely,
I'm unpredictable,
I'm broken,
I'm irrational,
I'm complicated.
You say you want me,
But you don't even know.
You see who I let you see,
Who I've always let you see,
But what about the real me,
The everyday me,
The girl who never seems to get anything right
The one who could break down at any given moment
And have no clue why.
I try so hard to fight away my doubts
For a while they bury themselves away,
So far away that I think they're gone forever,
But I guess nothing lasts forever,
Because the pain and tears always find their way back to me.
Can you handle me,
Can you handle ALL of me?
Am I worth the time,
Do you really love me enough
To stand by me through all my troubles,
Or am I just too broken for you?

Dear @Bubbles3 I admire the writings in your Bubbles World and much praise for same. What has Social Spaces replaced? You are such a battler and much admired for how you overcome setbacks. Do keep your Bubbles World going as one is inspired by its input. Wish you well. Bimby2

Hey @Bubbles3 and @Catcakes, I hope you are both well. I'm struggling a little with exhaustion and tiredness. It appears I did some pretty risky things while hypomanic (like spending money by applying for loans at 3am that I had no idea about until now). I guess staying awake for days on end really screws with you. Luckily for me, I can afford to pay the loans out (thankfully). I hope I wasn't too embarrassing last week or so. I feel kinda ashamed for what might be construed as bizarre behaviour.

Thanks @Catcakes. I think I will be sleeping a lot in the next few days to make up for the lack of sleep I've had due to the hypomania. My GP finally got hold of my psychiatrist and his response was kind of disappointing really (he said, at least she's not depressed and suicidal). He forgets that after a high comes the low. With the Silly Season upon us, I don't want to be showing any sign of ill mental health at all.