Taking the plunge

I wasn’t expecting to see you this morning @CheerBear . I hope the move etc went ok yesterday.

Challenging is how I would describe yesterday @CheerBear . But I’m moving at a snails pace deliberately. Not my normal choice.

I went to see ‘ Little Women’, at the small theatre near me. It was amazing. Oh my, women have had a hard slog over the centuries.

Is today looking ok for you. 💙

Morning @Maggie @CheerBear 😀

Did you hear back from fundraiser people @Maggie re your pendants etc?

Good morning @Former-Member. I did receive a tired message says many of my art stuff sold. I’m not sure if it was stones or pendants, or both. I will hear once they revive a little.

Lots of these for you 💙💙💙💙

I slept in but was looking forward to a cuppa here @Maggie 😊

I had a feeling it might be challenging for you yesterday (if I read correctly that church was what you were doing). Do you think its something you'll continue at? Are there people there you think you'll be able to be around with a level of OK-ness?

You went to the cinema again! It is incredible to reflect on what women have had to overcome.

Epic day yesterday. The move was hot and heavy and took way longer than we'd hoped. Finally after unpacking and sitting down it hit the fan with Sib's ex and ended in a 000 call 🙁 Sib went and stayed there for the night hoping to help their ex make it through alive. It was bad. Mr He person and I stayed here. We had a really good night once the dust had settled.

I'm at my gig today. He person is coming along for the drive and to find a coffee and some books while I'm there 🙂

Morning @Former-Member 👋 How are you going this morning?

Yes it was church yesterday morning @CheerBear . The people are definitely ok ness to be around. I have ‘ issues ‘ as per usual. I’m wrestling, and I mean wrestling with past and present. Trying to find a meeting place, but absolutely drenched in fear.

Oh wow, yesterday sounds full on for you all. I really hope it has ended ok enough. You must feel drained. 💜💜💜

You have your gig today. Mr is sounding supportive, you need that atm. Glad your night was ok. 💙💙

@CheerBear Whatever ‘ he’ has, sounds positive and good. All we can do is follow our senses, even if it is the nose’ smells good’, is good enough. Just be happy. You deserve support, happiness, respect and so much more.

The pushing through stuff is more searching for the speck of faith, buried beneath a lifetime of rubble @CheerBear. Can I blow some life back into what was my life. Can I believe again?? I sense I can, a bit like your good smell I think, we are both taking risks. Huge risks. I see and hear you. Life isn’t easy. You are pushing through some deep and meaningful stuff. Worth it for both of us? Time will tell.

My lady who helps with cleaning is coming today. I feel better than I did last time, so I think it will be ok enough. My pride takes a pounding.

I hope your gig goes really well. 💜💜💜

@Owlunar There is a lot to think about in your post. I’ve been chewing on it, as I usually do, and hope my response makes some kind of sense.

Here goes. My church absence came after so many walked away, at a time I need them the most. Added to that MI and the enormous struggles it presents us all with, left the deepest darkest hole in my soul. I felt abandoned by God, as well as my friends ( or so called friends ). But buried beneath it all is a tiny spark of faith, I think/hope. That is what I’m searching for, but it’s well and truly hidden.

I have worked with children in the past, and like you, I loved it. They have a way making complex simple. I don’t know if I will do it again, everything is a pipe dream, and nothing might come of it at all.

For now, I’m wrestling with some of the basic and challenging stuff. Can I do this? I don’t know. But I am at last willing to give it a try.

As always @Owlunar thanks for your thoughtful reply. 💙💙💙