Does anyone know what this is called?

I don't know what it is called but I think I know what you mean. I feel like I have 2 opposing forces/personas/people (it is still all me, no different voices or personalities as people with DID experience) inside who think the opposite on a vaiety of topics. One is black, one is white and I can change my opininion on a topic within a sentence. It makes it difficult at times to articluate my thoughts to myself and others.

Having experienced this for many years I now see this as a chess game rather than sitting on a fence. When one side shifts, the other reacts, and so opinions are not static. I have learnt to disguise this most of the time as thinking through all the options, looking at each case scenario differently, playing devil's advocate.

It does make it hard on big topic issues though as people want one answer and don't like people who change their minds. It has created some arguments but has also helped me narrow down my thoughts on some issues.

Sorry, that became all about me. But does that sound similar to what you've experienced?

Hi @Littletink_, I'm not sure if we have met before, it is nice to "meet" you. I am wondering if this sounds like a fit for what you are describing: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Splitting_(psychology)???

@Littletink_ I think this decribes somthing simaliar to how I feel before I get really down. I can be happy as larry then I just get a silly thought in my head and that is the trigger. I go back to happy thoughts but then the negative ones allways seem to be stronger. I hope that makes sence. I have no intention of ending my life but I it is a struggle. These thoughts come out of nowhere and are really powerfull and normaly bring me to tears

@Littletink_ Thankyou It is nice to know I am not the only one that feels this way

Yes dear @Littletink_,

Our thoughts come from three sources - God, our self and the devil.

I generally have one opinion on most things, but there are times when I'm thinking positively and then I get a negative thought. Usually I see myself thinking positively, but for us Christians, any fear, worry or negative thought can open the doorway to spirit to the devil. It is called negative faith and any fear or worry and it can bring the devil in and affect your thoughtlife.

Yes fear and worry can bring the devil in.

We are told in God's word in the Bible to 'Keep our thoughts obedient to Christ.'.......'We capture every thought and make it give up and obey Christ' 2 Corinthians 10:5.

Moreover, 'we demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.'

Concerning our thoughts,'Numerous ungodly philosophies hold people in bondage, and those spiritual “fortresses” need to be demolished. In short, Fear and worry and negative thoughts can keep us in bondage.

Also, I have been the kind of person that would live vicariously through others. ie boyfriend, parent, child. I googled vicariously and it says 'If you're living vicariously, stop it. Get out and live life for yourself. Vicariously means that you're experiencing something indirectly, like when your friend's adventure feels like your own. Vicariously is the adverb form of the word vicarious, which also involves experiencing something through another person.

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In a nutshell, The primary point in this section of 2 Corinthians is that we are in a spiritual warfare and the Word of God in biblical scripture tells us ''to take all our thoughts captive and make them obedient to God. '' (2 Corinthians 10:5)

Hence thinking positively and disregarding any negatives thoughts and having faith is ideally what we should do.