Fitting In?

Hi BambiFawn

having no or little support is hard. Its hard being alone all the time. Being here helps though, despite being alone physically even in a room full of people.

My mother has hated me since before birth too, I broke up her relationship and took her normal life away and for that I dont think she will ever forgive me. It wasnt just me that said that, my psychologist said it too trying to put it nicely but it doesnt help. Im sorry your mother has been so horrible to you! I cant believe there are parents out there like that.

@BambiFawn

its hard @BambiFawn but im glad youve found a way that helps ease things for you

Thanks dear @outlander,

You are so sweet and caring, thanks.

Also I have a good sence of humour and that helps me a lot. As it says in Bible, ' A merry heart doth good like medicine haha.

Dear @outlander

@Zoe7 @BambiFawn make good points.

Please dont overthink or beat yourself up about "fitting in"

I feel a little warmth seeing your profile pic humming about on the site. You share and care and should not expect yourself to be anything other than who you are. That is enough.

I struggled with fitting in for most of my life. I put enormous energy into it and am only recently starting to shed it.

We are all different. You are younger than some posters. Other posters have felt too old. There is no age limit on caring and experiencing mental health issues.

I am not sure there are forum mistakes, think of it more as play, not so much as a right or wrong way to post. Try a bit of this and a bit of that. We cant control the responses of others and that is what makes them so special.

A lot of us have found it addictive and time consuming but beneficial. We set boundaries on it in different ways, so sometimes an absence of response really may just be other stuff and nothing you did or did not do.

I am fond of you little sis.

thank you @BambiFawn@Appleblossom i will get to your msgs maybe tomorrow. im battling inner demons at the moment and low on energy from virus but thank you for your responses its much appreciated

your kind and caring yourself, without people like you and others here, it would make life a pretty crap one to live. Having others who understand makes life just that more bearable so thank you.
Also love the pic! @BambiFawn

Hi @Appleblossom

I was having quite a hard night so I thought id wait otherwise my response wouldnt be what id like it to be..

Im trying not to beat myself up over it but was this soemthing I was really struggling with and wasnt sure if I should say anything bit ive learn if I dont say anything sometimes it festers away and gets worse so I think its better to address what im feeling no matter what the outcome is. You dont know until you ask right.

Thank you for your kind words, they are very much appreciated. Ive always felt like an 'outlander' not only here but in life too. My friends I thought were friends delted and blocked me after I offerred my help, and the friends I went through school with were back stabbers and I spent my time in the library trying to be busy on a computer because I didnt have anyone else. They spread many rumours, ending up me being bullied ad physically beaten over something I had no idea what was going on, through yr 12 I had no one and when I graduated those 'friends' deleted and blocked me too.

I was starting to feel the lack of fittin in here too and it was starting to worry me and was worried about the responses I was going to get. Id much rather honesty from people, makes things less complicated and messy.

It want the responses I was getting, im extremely grateful for people here and their ongoing support and their support at all. It was more that I wasnt finding any common ground with people here and wasnt really sure what the best thing to do was. I have no intentions on leaving, I love being here and really it makes me feel less alone. I hate that others are struggling so much but it seems to be the common ground and the reason we are all here.

Im fond of you too sis

Hey dear @outlander,

You are dear to us, never forget God loves you.

Remember you are not alone. I felt like a babe in the woods when I was estranged from my mother and most of my family. I felt isolated from supports. But then I attended church and now I have met some lovely cherished Christian friends, that are my family and brothers and sisters in Christ. Church is my family now.

My athiest Auntie calls me everyday and she considers herself to be a LoneRanger. There are a lot of lonely people in the world. My mother even said at bingo, only one person spoke to her out of all there.

I intend to attend some workshops and groups and do some more networking. Sometimes you bump into new friends just shopping or walking. I've met a few like that.

I did well academically at high school. I attended a convent college taught by nuns, but I only had a few friends. But I remained friends with my English and Ancient History Teacher after school.

I've been abused by my mother. She is like a schoolyard bully to me, but hides behind a facade and lies. If anyone hurts you with words, just declare the word of God to your life situation and tell yourself over and over what God says in His Word to us ' No, I am precious in God's sight'. God loves all His children and think about what God would say about you, ie You are His treasured possession, child of God. God loves us with an everlasting love Jeremiah 31:3; God is the Father who comforts you in all your troubles 2 Corinthians 1 : 3-4. God tells us that He is not counting our sins 2 Corinthians 5:18-19..Take good care