deciphering my voices' messages

Hi. I am 41. I started hearing voices in February of 2012, aged 36. I hear them outside my head.

Up until then, I had experieced social anxiety, and some depression. I was very very self absorbed, and insular.

The first 6 months the voices were there they abused me non stop.

Eventually, they said something different: "you don't know how much misery you're responsible for".

I asked: "which misery?" to which i have received no reply in the 5 years since.

Another period later, they started telling me I need to "open my mind", and have "mind over matter". I asked what mind over matter means, and they told me it was having your mind's eye viewpoint up in the air above you, looking down. I achieved this, and it was excellent, a view point I had not had in 20 years.

Recently, they've told me since I have worked through anxiety and depression, i can help other people with anxiety and depression. I'm not sure if it these people who have the misery, or my friends and family who I had turned my back on in my twenties.

They also told me I have a good sense of humour (true) which can be used to help heal those people with anxiety & depression. I think this is an excellent idea, but they never tell me which people to help.

Today I contacted some Australian mental health organisations who offer online chat support, asking how I can help.

I'd really love to help people resolve their anxiety & depression.

Voices say society is desperate for some help.

Does anyone have any suggestion for how to approach the desire to help people resolve their anxiety & depression.

I've had the desire to be a counsellor before.

I'm torn between head and heart - I've applied for a web development course next year at uni....

Thoughts appreciated.

V