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Hi @utopia couldn't find the thread where we were chatting about you running out of meds recently, so posting here instead. Just wanting to check that things are okay with that now.

Thank you @Mazarita

I am feeling back to normal now.

I picked up my medication first thing in the morning.

I hope you are starting to see some positive change with your new medication.

Good to hear, @utopia. So far so good with the new med, no too-unpleasant side effects yet anyway, which is a good start.

hello and hugs @utopia

how are you my friend

@Shaz51 Im doing well. Applying for jobs. Relaxing at home. Usual stuff.

How is Mr Shaz feeling now? Did they up his meds or change the meds?

How are you? I hope you are taking time out for yourself everyday, to look after your own health.

So. The past week or two I haven't felt right. Don't quite feel like I'm in remission any more. And then Friday, I just sunk. I crashed. Feeling really fragile. Saturday, I put on a brave face. Sunday, today, sinking again.

Am worried that my miracle medication has stopped working. Worried I am heading back into full Depression. Worried there may not be a new medication to help me.

After all the years of trying multiple antidepressants, and at extremely high doses, none of them worked. Finally August 2020 my Psychiatrist gave me a mood stabiliser. Wow. Within days I went into remission. I felt so alive.

So I started planning. All those things I learnt from my Psychologist that I now needed to put in place.

I would need to join a group activity or two. Start activities that I would enjoy, learn something new, meet new people. But Covid was in the way.

The 2 activities I wanted to do, ballroom dancing and yoga, the businesses were closed, as were most businesses.

I could not get a job. No one was hiring.

Month after month of still being isolated in my house.

2021. Things slowly start opening. By March I could join ballroom dancing classes. But I don't. All those old self negative talks started up again. I couldn't afford the classes or the petrol to get to classes. I have no clothes to wear to classes. I got so fat the last 6 plus years. Got up to size 22. Have been losing weight last year and a half. But now have no clothes that fit. Not even a single pair of jeans. I can't go to classes in tracky daks and tops that are 3 sizes too big.

Yoga still hasn't started up again. Am applying for the few part time jobs in my preferred industry, but not getting any call backs.

And now .... Crashing.

I can't seem to turn off the negative talk, like I used to be able to do.

The Depression is creeping in and I don't think I can stop it.

Still have to wait 2 weeks to see my Psychiatrist.

Think I'm drowning again.

@utopia Very much hearing you my beautidful cocky friend - although I really wish it wasn't the case for you Can you call your pdoc tomorrow and see if you can get in earlier? You might need a tweak of your meds - I have had several over the years - both up and down depending on how I am going. Hugs and hugs Hon

@Zoe7 Yes I might have to call my Psychiatrist tomorrow.

I already left a message last Friday for my Psychologist.

Hey @utopia Checking in on how you are going today Hon and iff you managed to contact your pdoc and/or heard back from your psych?

I hear you @utopia

This is not good - when I started reading your message I thought - something has set your depression off - what was it and of course COVID - that pandemic has got into everyone's life and made life difficult from small issues to huge - and depression is one of the biggies of course

But - good work for your weight loss in spite of the pandemic - well done - but clothes - yeah - can you do that on-line? Can you afford to spend money on clothes right now? It certainly seems that you need them and it might help to lighten your mood. It certainly helps me to have some retail therapy. It certainly is hard if everything is three sizes to large - clothes hanging off anyone is not a good look or comfortable either. I so wish you the best with that and wish I could help

I'm sorry your depression is sneaking back - or doing a major gate-crash -

Dec

I'm sure new clothes will help your depression