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Well I'm finally home (again).
4 hospital stays in 91 days. Wow. No wonder it feels so strange to be in my own house again. Adjusting will take time. Cooking for myself will take time.
My house is in the same condition in which I left it. A pigsty. So no one room has warmth and charm to lift my mood. Will have to slowly start cleaning up - one room at a time.
I did go and watch my son play soccer in the finals. I'd been so sick this year - thst it was the first game I had been to all year. His team lost. But they play again next week. So still stand a chance of playing the grand final.
My son is still living with my mum. Has been since the end of April. Hopefully he will see how much I've improved on my new anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Then he may choose to come home soon.
Was up and doing the washing early this morning. But now reading a book in bed.
Am very bored. But have AA Meeting tomorrow night.
And I have my WorkCover IME (independent Medical Examination) - psych interview with a tough psychiatric on the 30th of this month. Think it could be on Wednesday. And then I have my much waited for Psychologist appointment. Can't see him when I'm in hospital (too far away).
So that's it for now. A new thread for a new beginning.
@Zoe7 @soul @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Bast @oceangirl @outlander @Former-Member @Teej @BlueBay @Owlunar

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That is really good news @utopia - both that you got out of the house to do something and that your cried - must have helped release some of that tension also.

It is also really good that you did something for yourself nd saw a movie - getting out of the house is so important when we don't feel like doing anything - so well done in doing that - and seeing a movie is a huge bonus

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I still prefer the original @Zoe7 With Barbara Streisand and Kris Kristofeson. But was still worth seeing the remake.

I've realised that I'm sleeping really well. Takes me about half an hour or so to fall asleep, and except for a toilet break, I sleep right through the night. Feels good. Definitely helping with my mood in the morning.

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That's good to hear @utopia

A good night's sleep is definitely a good thing and helps us with the next day - no doubt about that

I know you've had a bleak patch - I hope things improve - this might be a good start

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The original was a great movie so it would have to be outstanding to top that @utopia.

It is wonderful that you are sleeping - we both know how much that can help our mood - when I am tired I can't function at all and after years of running on empty it is good to finally be getting some sleep. It feels a bit to me like I am catching up on years without sleep and there are days when that is still all I want to do - sleep the day away...but having sleep at night helps significantly.

How are the meds going now - do you feel more able to cope with things?

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@Zoe7. I don't feel irritable anymore. Depression still lurking, but not 100% focus. So a lot better.

Something still feels off. Don't know what it is or how to describe it. But I'll pull through.

Am very bored. Reading. But I can't do that all day. Bored.

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Boredom can be just as destructive as the depression @utopia - if we don't find things to do then it can affect our mood also - I definitely know that first hand. You are right - you can only read for so long. I have my art to do so that is something that I can get stuck into when I feel like it - my biggest problems are motivation and energy. Sometimes I have neither and that doesn't help with my mood. I know you are not a big joiner of groups so that won't help you - how about some time in the garden?

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@Zoe7 Too late tonight for the garden. But I do have a lot of weeding to do so the Shire doesn't fine me.

Lack of motivation and energy is hard Zoe. I struggle with it almost every day.

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I so get the lack of motivation and energy @utopia I think that is the hardest thing about depression - you know you should be doing things but your body and mind just won't come to the party - makes it extremely hard to move forward in even baby steps.

Hopefully doing some of the weeding, despite it being necessary from the shire, will help you out in the energy stakes a little. It does make it hard when you need to do it though and it is not something you really enjoy.

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You think it might be the heat @utopia

it was 37 degrees up here today even the fridge was struggling

tomorrow is suppose to be 40 degress

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@Shaz51 Today was 24c. Past 3 days 17 was the maximum. Had to have the heater on at night - 1week til summer.

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