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utopiaSenior Contributor27 Aug 2017, 3:34 pm AEST

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Well I'm finally home (again).
4 hospital stays in 91 days. Wow. No wonder it feels so strange to be in my own house again. Adjusting will take time. Cooking for myself will take time.
My house is in the same condition in which I left it. A pigsty. So no one room has warmth and charm to lift my mood. Will have to slowly start cleaning up - one room at a time.
I did go and watch my son play soccer in the finals. I'd been so sick this year - thst it was the first game I had been to all year. His team lost. But they play again next week. So still stand a chance of playing the grand final.
My son is still living with my mum. Has been since the end of April. Hopefully he will see how much I've improved on my new anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Then he may choose to come home soon.
Was up and doing the washing early this morning. But now reading a book in bed.
Am very bored. But have AA Meeting tomorrow night.
And I have my WorkCover IME (independent Medical Examination) - psych interview with a tough psychiatric on the 30th of this month. Think it could be on Wednesday. And then I have my much waited for Psychologist appointment. Can't see him when I'm in hospital (too far away).
So that's it for now. A new thread for a new beginning.
@Zoe7 @soul @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Bast @oceangirl @outlander @Former-Member @Teej @BlueBay @Owlunar

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:27 pm AEDT

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Good to hear from you @utopia

So that was at least 3 ticks for today, shopping, shower and med decision. It makes a difference that they call back.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:28 pm AEDT

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Good to hear from you @utopia

So that was at least 3 ticks for today, shopping, shower and med decision. It makes a difference that they call back.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:42 pm AEDT

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I totally agree with @Appleblossom here @utopia - you can do this, You have showed so much reserve over so long and I believe in you Hon. It is all about baby steps here - begin with the shower - it is a real effort when you are feeling like you are right now but it will help you in the way you are feeling also. Hugs my beautiful cocky friend

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Zoe7Senior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:49 pm AEDT

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Just read that you had a shower and done some shopping - for some reason posts didn't come through until now @utopia - must be a glitch in the system today because it happened on another thread too. Oh well - that is life hey!

I am really pleased to hear your pdoc said to start again on the mood stabiliser and that tht alone has given you a little lift - hopefully that will help you to get back on track a little more. You have certainly been down for a wjile now and I would love nothing more right now than to see you back where you were when you left hospital.

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utopiaSenior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:53 pm AEDT

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I would like to be where I was, mentally, when I left hospital too @Zoe7.

I remember a week after starting the meds and realizing that there was no depression. Strange feeling. But good feeling.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 2:59 pm AEDT

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I remember too @utopia You really seemed to be in a good place and I hope you can get back to that place really soon. I feel for you so much right now - it is horrible to be feeling so low when you know it doesn't have to be that way. Here with you my beautiful cocky friend

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outlanderSenior Contributor20 Nov 2018, 3:09 pm AEDT

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@utopia 💌🕊

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Zoe7Senior Contributor21 Nov 2018, 5:48 pm AEDT

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@utopia How are you going back on the meds?

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utopiaSenior Contributor21 Nov 2018, 8:05 pm AEDT

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I'm not feeling as irritated today @Zoe7. Today has been quite good - peaceful.

My son came over and mowed the front and back lawn - which was very good of him. It looks great. Still have weeding that I have to manage to do.

How was work? Is it going okay?

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Zoe7Senior Contributor21 Nov 2018, 8:14 pm AEDT

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Really pleased your lawn is finally done @utopia and even better news that you are feeling a little better today

No work today - had GP, DBT, pdoc and psych all today though

Work again on Friday - just trying to get some of the planning done for it tonight but can't really think very well so might need to wait until tomorrow. I am going to try to get myself to the pool tomorrow - missed the last couple of sessions so I really need to get there.

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