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@Owlunar. I miss my old job. I miss the clients. I miss feeling useful. But the thought of working now - not possible. More time needed.
I see my psychiatrist not tomorrow but the following Monday. So I'll tell him what my psychologist said. But I think he'll agree.
My psychologist is sending him a letter - feedback on my therapy. He doesn't feel my meds are working. And to be honest, I just can't tell. I can't tell up from down at the moment.
I was hoping my memory and cognitive ability would have improved some by now. But feel I'm getting worse in that area.
Trying not to get sucked back into my negative / depression vortex.
Just telling myself I just need a few days rest and then I can get back into fighting this disease.

Thank you @soul. Should be a good week. Going to tackle a few house hold chores I've neglected. Cleaner house hopefully equals a better mood.
Hope you have some enjoyable plans set for this week.

Thank you @Maggie.

Thanks @Owlunar. I finally had a much needed shower. Feel heaps better. Did a load of washing. Folding washing etc. Cleaned dog bowls. Did grocery shopping. Fridge doesn't look so empty now. Lol.
I hope your day is going well today. Surprisingly it's a sunny 17° / 18° today. Amazing after our cold days recently. So nice to feel the sun nice and warm on my face.

Hey @utopia
You did heaps today. Well done. I've come home from work and put a load of washing on. I'll leave them inside to try as it's cold outside niw.
Don't know what to cook for dinner. Msybe an easy pasta dish.
What are you having fir dinner?

Probably just make a sandwich for dinner @BlueBay. My boy is working tonight and he eats what they haven't sold at the end of the day. Lol.

So I received a letter from CentreLink today. Very different from the letters they normally send me.
They are requesting my doctor fill out a different type of CentreLink Medical Certificateddetailing what my illness is, whether it's temporary or permanent, what my treatment is, how long I will be 'sick'.
The letter states that there is a time period for being sick - 13 weeks! I've had a years worth of medical certificates in the last 12 months.
My psychiatrist doesn't know yet if it's temporary or permanent - although I had planned on asking him this question anyway when I see him on Monday.
But if it's permanent, would CentreLink even aporove a disability pension. I don't think so. As when I'm feeling better I should be able to work, until the next episode.
My psychiatrist is waiting for me to 'stabilise' (workcover terminology) - to decide if I will ever get better. If I won't get better. Or if I'll fluctuate between the two. I need him to do that, so WorkCover can sort out my % of incapacity. That should help with CentreLink, but that's months away yet. And I don't think CentreLink will wait that long.
I can't afford mentally to be pushed into looking for work. And I can't afford financially to lose my $260 a fortnight. That's our food and bills and petrol money.
Am scared CentreLink will cut me off. I tried calling them today, but as usual their phone line was permanently engaged. (That's what happens when you sack a heap of workers, to save money). But that doesn't help me.
Maybe I should ask my Mind Australia worker to make an appointment for me with CentreLink and she can come with me. But I'll still need my psychiatrist to fill out that form. My gp can't do it. As the gp I saw for 4 years left our area last year. Started seeing another gp - but I didn't like her. And have only had one appointment with a new one. So she doesn't really know me - except to say I have White Coat Syndrome. Lol.
Gotta laugh or you cry.
Feel like crying. Why does everything have to be so bloody hard and complicated.