Changes in the beginning.......

Please move if I've chosen the wrong spot for this.

Just wondering how 'normal' (I use that word losely) the changes to your life are when you first find yourself looking after and responsible for someone in your family/someone you love?

It's been just 9 days since I found out about my sons suicide attempt and reoccurring thoughts. I've been worried for a while and I've actually been checking on him sleeping (during waking hours) for many months prior to knowing.

Now I've got a few other measures in place. I'm still key-locking the house bolts, I can't bring myself to go out before he's up and started his day, I've got the boxes of medicine hidden with just a sheet of each left in the medicine box. Oh, and I'm wearing full pj's to bed in case I have to get up suddenly.

He's had one psychologist appt so far. He's getting up earlier than weeks ago, but still not a 'reasonable' time and has started back at uni. I just don't feel enough has changed that I can lower my guard completely yet. Is this normal?

I'm not smothering. He doesn't know any of it except I'm dishing out his ADD meds in the mornings. (and he's queried that continuing to happen tonight via message, I'm trying not to respond!)

How long is 'normal' in other people's experiences? 😔