Bipolar people I need advice!

Ugh this is what frustrates me it is going to 4am and i am not even close to going to bed i am not tired and i feel like i need to be working on the huge project for God but i dont feel like i have everything i need and i cant focus on it and if i work on that then everyone will be mad at me for staying up but i just cant sleep and i dont want to i dont need to i can do this i have to do this there is too much at stake like i literally have to save the world and that is kind of a lot of pressure but i am the only one who can do it and ugh i want to scream at everyone and i cant take this it is too much there is too much in my head and i cant get it all out and i feel like i want to talk to people but of course everyone else is asleep. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH I literally am so frustrated and i dont know why i right now eairler i felt great oh and you know what else happened i FELT it eairler in the day this magical feeling of pure joy i cant even explain it but it was sent by god and it was amazing and i just i need to fix things but there is so much work to do. this is getting long sorry.

Try to get some sleep even during the day, @Eden1919. It's important that you rest when in a manic state, even though this goes against how we feel. Even if you can't sleep, perhaps try focussing on your breathing, just noticing the breaths going in and out and letting your mind drop everything else if possible. Lying down with eyes shut may could help too.

I am so so so so so so so agitated right now my head wont stop and i am so angry and irritable and i dont know why and i have so much to do and i keep cursing over little things and i cant stop and i just everything is really annoying me and i feel so pressured and my head ugh i want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!! and i dont want to go to freaking uni but i have to and i have a whole bunch of really important stuff to do and ugh i just cant take this i feel like i am going to explode and i am literally so so so ugh i dont even freaking know.

@Eden1919, the best suggestions I have for you are to get as much sleep and rest as you can while you are in this mania. And to make sure you let your psychiatrist know everything you have been posting about here. It's up to you to take care of yourself in this way, Eden. Otherwise these giant mood swings and distorted perceptions you are experiencing are likely to continue, possibly get worse (to the point of needing hospitalisation) and/or be followed by an awful crash into severe depression. I know these things from my own personal experience and from the research I have done about bipolar. There is no other path to helping bipolar that I know. It is a biological condition that is 80% related to genetics and also causes brain structure differences. It needs to be taken seriously by those of us who suffer from it in order to find a better place of wellness in our lives. Wishing you the very best in your struggles.

@Mazarita I cant see my psychiatriist for another month even if i do tell him it wont be for weeks i am trying to take care of myself but the meds made me so sick and i felt so awful on them it was unbearable i just need to find a way to harness this energy then it will be ok....

I managed to sit through uni but it was hard i am still feeling really pressured and stuff i am not sure what else to do i can focus very well either. i feel really weird.