Bipolar people I need advice!

@Eden1919, your list is almost like a text-book description of mania. It sounds very much like this is what you may be experiencing. I think you need to talk to your psychiatrist about all this as soon as possible. As I've said before, it is really important for your health and wellbeing that you do this and speak honestly about all your perceptions and experiences at present. Wishing you the very best.

@Mazarita I guess i am just not sure because it doesnt feel exactly like last time can mania feel different each time? I did tell my psychologist about the spirit world and that i had a lot to do but i was struggling to find a way to explain it in detail at the time and was very distracted by some of the spirits so i couldnt get the words out.

@Eden1919, yes, mania can happen differently each time. It is your psychiatrist (not psychologist) I think you most need to see very soon and talk to about this. Your medications may need changing and the psychiatrist is the one who can help you with this. I have been reading your posts from time to time and it seems like you have been going through this for quite some time. Please do see your psychiatrist very soon and tell them everything you are going through.

@Former-Member Yes thanks i tried looking up the symptoms again and some of them did fit i think it is just throwing me off how different it feels to last time like some things are the same only some are not and i think it is confusing me.

@Mazarita yes well i dont see my psychiatrist for another month so i cant really talk to him about it anytime soon. i am not currently taking medication and over all i feel a lot better off them than on them my head feels so clear and everything is making sense now and i just feel a lot better than when i was on them. i am just not really sure what to do because this feels more like how i felt just before it got really intense last time but then again as long as i dont plan to hurt myself this time i think it will be ok maybe i just need to wait this out.

It's your choice, @Eden1919. But just remember that when we get manic, our perceptions of what is real and helpful to us can be very out of whack. If I was you, I would be ringing up tomorrow to reschedule with my psychiatrist for an earlier appointment. One of the problems for us with mania is that it is often followed by very bad depression. Meds can help balance this out for us to some degree, so that the high is not so 'off the ground' and the low is not so terribly painful.

@Mazarita I mean i get the depression can be bad but i just felt so horrible on the meds and i cant go back there i cant do that again. the only other problem is that i live in a small area and there is currently a shortage of psychiatrists so my psychiatrist is VERY busy and even if i called he may not have anything for another month anyway.

@Former-Member I get that a cold can be different i guess it is just hard for me to know what feeling means what at the moment. i am trying to understand though but i just feel like i am fine like deep down i feel like there is nothing worng and that people just dont understand me. i dont know i just dont feel like anything is worng deep down i mean a few people have mentioned that they think something is off but i am just not sure what to think.

You could see your gp and get him/her to call and get an urgent appt with your psych.

@Arjay Maybe but that is even more money that i dont have right now cause i may have spent it all.......