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Is it worth it?

Is it worth it?

Hello,

it is the 15th August 2017. It is 2017. No more suffering sounds like such a nice option. No more discussions with my husband. No more whinging noises from the pets around me. No more pressure to talk to my mum. No more pressure to start work again. No more trying to work on my past. It always comes down to that. I feel empty, living dead. My mind gives me rational reasons to hang in there. But I am tired.

I know the game plan, I know what to do right now to ease the pain, but why do I need to know that? How come life can't just be good? I find self-care, self-compassion and everything "self-" just draining and a necessity to manage myself. I just want to be free again.

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And why is everything "self" such a burden. Women love pampering themselves, getting pampered, going shopping, bla bla bla and I just find it a chore. Even eating is a chore, unless it is a nutella donut - but then I should't just live on them. Everything "self" is a should.

I just want to lie in bed and watch the tree outside.

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@Former-Member Hi are you ok do you want to talk

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Hi @Ant7

Just so tired. I feel like every day is Groundhog Day, was that the movie where everything just kept repeating itself? Life's like that. I could just as well be a hamster on the hamster wheel. Does no one else see that? What is so good about living?

I dared to stop and think. I'll be better soon. I've taken my meds, I will eat a healthy lunch, talk to my husband and clean the kitchen. He sun is starting to come out. I'll be fine.

How are you?

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@Former-Member I am a little down but I will be ok. I hope things are getting better for you

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I'm going to bed. Ear plugs in. Eyes closed. Shutting the world out. Meds don't work, eating hasn't helped, caffeine and sugar neither. Don't want to do meditation, cleaning, walking or all the other wonderful coping techniques I've learnt. Just go away world and leave me alone.

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hugs @Former-Member thinking of you

here if you want to chat further

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Hugs @outlander

Riding the wave. How are you?

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im ok doing the same thing, just sitting tight at the moment @Former-Member

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@Former-Member

Anyone out there tonight?

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@Former-Member what can I help you with tonight?

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