Talking about not talking

Hey @CheerBear. That's good that you got some mowing done, with the petrol that you'd figured out how to get 🙂

Yeah, I mean at least I was stuck on the problem because I really did need more information, not because I'd got it wrong. It's just a shame that it took me so long to eventually come to that conclusion. It will definitely help to have the answer. Now I just have to hope that the extra information that I've requested will come back and say something useful, rather than something unhelpful (which is sometimes the case with my work stuff).

This morning started out pretty bad for me but it's improved slightly. Hope your day's been going well.

Figured I'd do some Microsoft Paint doodling, before we all get updated to the Windows 10 version that doesn't include it. And to distract me from feeling alone.

Phew @CheerBear, I just looked into the Paint situtation a bit more: "Also, just because the program is being listed as “deprecated” doesn’t mean that it’s gone for good just yet — there’s still no date or time frame for when (or even if) Microsoft intends to remove the application completely." So you're still good to update whenever it otherwise makes sense to.

Thanks. Yeah I work M-F. Still waiting on info for that other thing, so I've got 4 new things to work on in the meantime.

Got injured playing sport today and I'm really upset about it. Feeling like I let down the team (and will be letting down the team in the coming weeks if it doesn't heal), and am just generally unhappy. I've never had a proper sports injury before so haven't previously had to deal with the whole "getting old" "weak useless body" "wanting to play but can't" issue.

I didn't do team sports back in the day when I had the only major-out-of-action injury I've ever had. This shouldn't be a major-out-of-action injury, but still could be a probably-shouldn't-play-for-a-few-weeks-to-avoid-reinjuring-it thing. Which feels very unacceptable and upsetting.

While I'm talking to myself, s'pose I'll put this here too.

Last weekend while in a bit of a semi-optimistic mood I decided to try the Mindspot clinic thing. I figure I already know what stuff I need to be doing to sort myself out but have trouble with consistency and execution. A little bit of accountability would help with that.

I filled out their online quiz, and chose between getting an email vs. phonecall to discuss results. Now, I reckon that a lot of written word stuff comes off glib, patronising, and ultimately infuriating. So I picked the phonecall, as much as I hate phonecalls and avoid them wherever possible. I thought I could handle it. I thought wrongly.

Today was the phonecall day, and I did not want to deal with it one bit. It cooincided almost exactly with a sort of inspection my unit was having which made it double yuck. Legit missed the phone call, but realistically probably wouldn't have answered even if I hadn't. Now I've got to deal with them trying to follow up. What a joke.

Hi @TheVorticon (if I ever get annoying or what I say is not helpful please, let me know).

I hadn't seen mindspot before your post. I think I'd heard about it but that's about it. I jumped online and decided to give the quiz a go (despite how much I can flip at assessment anythings), pretty much to see and try to get an idea of what you sat through. I'm now waiting on my call too which is sort of scary (lots scary). I'm face palming myself because I ticked the 'call anytime' option. Yay for not thinking that one through much :face_with_rolling_eyes:

I found it really hard to do. I think it's really cool that you did give it a go and can now appreciate how even filling out the quiz would have been uncomfortable (maybe not the right word). I can so much understand how the inspectiony thing (which I fully felt the not funness of this week also) and that phone call colliding, would have made me feel like I definitely did not want to deal with it also, and been double yuck.

I genuinely though, think it is great you tried and also genuinely believe that sometimes these things get better/easier/more helpful, with practice.