Yes @Owlunar very similar in deed, and its apity the world is like this really.
Ahh yes the tables. Every time I am triggered my psychologist would like me to fill in a table. It includes the date, what the trigger was, a rating out of 10 as to how it affected me, how my brain responded- e.g overwhelming thoughts, how my heart reacted e.g heavy, fast. How my body reacted e.g numb, shaking, nausea etc, what the emotional reponse was e.g, depressive, anxious, angry, upset,flustered etc. what the coping strategy is that I used or few that I used and then rate how I feel after that so if I was a 10- did it drop down to 9, 8 etc.
oh wow I was only up to 10 then, I am now over 50! and thats since monday and I have to keep going until my pscyh appointment on monday arfternoon so still today and tomorrow to go.
Yesterday however I ended up talking to @Former-Member who I am very thankful for. I was in a heap of trouble and i was helped right through until i fell asleep