hi @outlander I think I dealt with my surgery nerves by distraction & not telling anyone about it irl - I felt if I told people they'd ask questions or say what could go wrong & make me focus on it more. I only told my mother (who is unfortunately abusive) as she was helping to pay for it and she was dropping me off & picking me up - I don't think the hospital allowed me to get a taxi. I had great faith in my surgeon & was confident she'd do a great job when the time came so I just put it out of my mind up until the last minute. I only had the cat to organise & live pretty close to the hospital.
That's so awesome you've organise yourself a private nurse & hotel room to recover in, what a terrific plan to protect & support yourself for the quickest & best recovery. You sound like an incredibly mature and responsible you person & I'm so proud of you you've organised your recovery this way. I'm sure the hopsital has excellent staff & it will all go very well 
hi @LadyleahRDBloom yeah it's hard to bounce back from a rejection email. I dread checking my email 'cos now I epxect there to be rejection emails & not even an interview waiting for me in my inbox. It is rough. But give yourself a little time to recover, you'll be able to get back into the job applications when you're ready, you sound like a very strong & capable person. Hamsolo has been working away very hard at job applications, way more than I have, his thread is called ' new start kind' of if you want to drop in there.