Anyone feel like chatting?

it was good to get some done @Adge

Hello @Nic1963

Hello @Nic1963

A bit tired and aching so thinking of going to bed soon

How about you

hello @StefaniMonkey, @Bel1, @lolliepop

@outlander

I'm here now, it's 3:55am I'm feeling bad, I woke up not long ago. Too many negative thoughts in my head to go back to sleep atm. Not imagionary thoughts, real ones. I always have life slap me in my face, so to speak, at this vunerable time, for some reason?

I must be at my weakest, early hours of the morning. I hate feeling like this, my day isn't that much better, but I don't feel so emotionally, & mentally lost in the day time. I have my meds to help me through the day.

It's so no worth stressing over, (my lost feeling) yet it's so easy to do/feel, at this time. I will try & distract myself like I always do, as things can always be worse.

I should delet this message, but it is what it is. Maybe by acknowledging it, & reading it back later today, I can help myself to overcome, I hope & pray so.

Love & Hugs!

Bella xo 🙂

@outlander @Former-Member

Good Morning, & thank you so much for supporting me. I am working on taking back control, of this early morning trauma, & bad dream experiences, that I have been upsetting me for far too long!!!

I did some research this morning via Web, looks like I could be warn out, & stuck too much in my past. It does make sense to me, I must admit. I do not do what I know needs to be done for myself, &, in this house, due to being warn out, from body pain.

I have to rest through the day, just to try & get a brake from the high level of body pain. I have to take full dose of meds, to get the medical help, to be able to rest.

I do not attend properly to my personal needs, as I know I should, through tiredness, & strong pain, & I just give up, as no one cares anyway. 😞

Atm I have no idea how to get on the top of it all? I do not need looking after, & I do not need anymore operations, as they would not heal me, just complicate matters. I am pushed to my limit atm, & I have no extra money to pay for house work done, occasionally.

I will work it out, somehow, I will do it?

Love & Hugs!

Bella xoxo 🙂