@TAB, @Sans911@sold the family farm through family shit.One problem that led to my breakdown was in 2001,my eldest sister,who. was and is the family favourite,and my mother made out I was physically abusing my mother when simply I basically said "no".They got the local dr,and the police there,who put words in my mouth.I was traumatized,few days later I was pushed out the door by my sister and her boyfriend,was in at the police station telling him what went on when it came over the radio "I was going beserk".Never spoke to the sister again ,left and lived with relatives for six weeks.Took a long time to regain a relationship with my mother,and I never will forgive her.Im the one who took everyone s problems on board and used to be a babysitter for my sister's kids.The niece I contacted,I looked after when she was a baby .I copped a lot of criticism and was ridiculed in the small town from this.It caused a lot of inner conflict and confusion.As stated,the only good thing was I lost eight St as they used my obesity to hurt me as who would believe me?My sister was a nurse for that doctor who was always confident, attractive, everything I wasn't.It wasn't the first time my mother has made me out to be violent,she got friends,relatives,who I no longer talk to because of their judgement.That sister then left and left me with my mother,she went and had a life.My mother still accuses me of abusing her when I am trying my best .It hurts.This is why I don't want to end up as a carer, because she's got me.I did move away for six months when the farm was sold,failed,the other two sisters made no effort to help my mother in this house,my plan was to get a life I failed,back to ugly Cinderella.
