Anyone feel like chatting?

You don't have to say or write anything @Former-Member - we do understand that sense of emptiness, as if there is no point even thinking about seeing the sun because it will only further blind us to our own reality. It is easier to sit in the darkness that we are so accustomed to because although that does not make us feel safe - it is a state that we know. I hear you buddy and I am sitting here with you - you are not alone

I really understand that feeling of wanting to be alone @Former-Member It takes too much energy to even ask for help, ask for support - and feeling that others need it more - so I step away from here myself in those times. This dark place is a really horrible place to be - and I too wish that no-one else would have to feel this - but we do. The guiding light here - for all of us - is that we are not alone (as horrible as that is), we do understand how very, very hard it is and we do want it to be better for each other. I want it to be better for me and I want it to be better for you. As I said before sweetheart - you don't need to write - you just need to BE - and I will be here beside you - so you know you are not alone and are cared for

BTW @Former-Member I have trouble 'finding words' to describe how I am feeling also - my brain shuts down to avoid any further pain

definitely no thanks needed here @Former-Member - we are here for each other Sometimes it helps me more to forget about my own 'situation' and chat with others. Sometimes it is best that I 'disappear' for a while because I am too overwhelmed by my own negativity. It can be a balancing act - as you know - when we need the most support we do not know how to ask for it - and that can lead us further into the darkness. I do find it really difficult to articulate my feelings in these times - I really don't think there are words that can describe how we are feeling sometimes.

It does make it difficult @Former-Member - sometimes talking helps to get out those feelings and other times it just makes us even more confused... but whichever way it goes - the one thing we can ALWAYS hold on to is the support we have here