True @outlander
When our animal friends have to leave they do take a part of us with them - but they also leave part of themselves behind - this could be called memories - but whatever I still have stories to tell about all of the animals I have had
One dog, lots of cats, birds and hermit crabs - now they were really funny but they don't do well in captivity - neither would I
You are in a state of captivity - you do deserve better - and although your parents made a mistake before you were born you are a worthwhile person. I think you know my son was adopted - now the story behind this and what he perceived were not the same - and I loved him as much as most mothers could - I gave him all of myself and he was not a mistake to me
But I know he was young - even when he died he was still very immature - he really didn't understand
However - you are older - you really must start to believe in yourself - I know how crappy your health is and that you have been thrown from a horse more than once and have had injuries - but the time is coming for you to break away from the chains you can feel around you
You get rattled - oh yes - I can too still - but not nearly as often - and it is something for you to imagine - a life away from your mother and that creep she has with her and your sisters actually - I know you love your pop and I think it's his house you are living in
The good part will start - I promise - the trick is starting with something small - and gradually branching out
I have your back as best I can
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