Just me.

I was looking for a place to talk with others about my experience and I found these forums. So, hi.

My name is Emilia and I'm 21 years old. I'm sure I've had depression for a long time, but I was only diagnosed with severe clinical depression last year.

I don't have many friends and I feel pretty isolated. I still live at home and I'm currently on curfew. I have strict parents who rarely let me out at night, and if I want to stay overnight somewhere or go on a short holiday I have to ask permission and divulge details. I've recently gotten a job which I'm happy about bit I doubt I'll ever have ,y own place or go to the places I ever really want to go.

Many days I often feel that there's an anchor dragging my body everywhere instead of actually doing things. I'm not very close to my family and I tend not to tell my mother about my illness, because whenever I say I feel tired or sad she likes to turn it into a competition.

I also have anxiety and often get anxious about my future, or other things and I often have panic attacks during the night.

So that's my story. I have a story about what may have triggered the intense low period but I don't have time right now to tell it. I hope to contribute more around here and makes some new friends.