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Hospital

redheadedSenior Contributor13 July 2017, 12:23 pm AEST

Hospital

This is my third admission in a month and I'm over it.
Yesterday my best friend called the police on me after the Dr discharged me in the morning. So I'm back to being a involuntary patient.

No one gets it that no matter how long they keep me im still going to suicide on discharge. It's been 4 weeks since I nearly died and tbh that just makes me angry, I'm angry at myself because of it.
Today marks 5 years since my first suicide attempt and I'm sad because I should have died then, not survive it and be stuck in this shit.

No matter what happens I just want to die. Why won't anyone let me.

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor13 July 2017, 5:17 pm AEST

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Hi @redheaded, It super sucks that you are back in hospital after only getting discharged in the morning. It sounds like your hospital stay wasn't particularly helpful. Do you think they will keep you in for long this time?

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redheadedSenior Contributor13 July 2017, 7:24 pm AEST

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@Phoenix_Rising the psych ward is getting a new psychiatrist on Monday so who knows, but I've only been out of hospital for 2 days in the last 4 weeks, I don't think hospital helps. Nothing helps, hence why I've given up.

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Eden1919Senior Contributor13 July 2017, 7:47 pm AEST

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Hi @redheaded i am really sorry you are going through this it really sucks that things are so hard. i just got out of the hospital again and my dr on discharge said he was letting me go because i had not got any better so basically he was giving up like everyone seems to be. and i have been asking the same questions. if nothing can help why do i have to still be here. but people keep telling me that everyone has a purpose in life so maybe that has something to do with it. i am not going to tell you that there is something that will help you because i dont know that for sure but i HOPE that there is something that may help and that maybe you can hold on long enough for that thing to appear.

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redheadedSenior Contributor13 July 2017, 9:53 pm AEST

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@Eden1919 thanks

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redheadedSenior Contributor14 July 2017, 1:50 pm AEST

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Today is really hard. I don't want to be here.

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor14 July 2017, 1:54 pm AEST

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Hi @redheaded, I'm guessing you are probably still in hospital.

@redheaded and @Eden1919 I know how awful it is to be sent home from hospital being told there is nothing they can do for you. That happened to me many times during my late teens / early twenties. I then kind-of moved past seeking help from the hospital and now I would never present there voluntarily because I know there is nothing they can do for me. The only time I land in hospital now is if I go into crisis in public and someone calls the police etc.

I super wish I had an answer for you both. I super wish psychiatry was a bit more advanced than it is. I'm really gad you can at least gain some support here in Forum Land.

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