My Story

Hi @Misty-Mirrors I live in Melbourne .. I lived in Sydney as a child and was forced to move far more than was healthy then, so now I too like to settle down.

Isnt it interesting that one of your pictures won the awards but it is not the only thing you are interested in. Do you mainly use oil, water or acrylic paints?

Yes I too like a balance of company and solitude. This morning I went to see a movie with a friend .. we went to a favorite part of town. My son came too and then decided he wanted all the food in my bag and was ok about taking it with him .. and he went across town by public transport to do his last performance of Puccini. They have a week off before new program starts. I came home and dropped friend off.

I have become more interested in our immunity since my broher has had cancer. He lives in Germany now as they are more ahead with alternative medicine. Though I always was reluctant to get antibiotics unless really necessary.

I think sometimes our immune systems are stronger and we battle a cold stop it becoming a fullblown affair.

Someone posted a thread wondering if MI was catchy like a cold .. i tend to think it is .. but its not fun and nobody wants it ... so those that dont have it often like to think that it is a character issue. The whole genetics thing has boiled down to just stats and so I am not so convinced about the MI as "genetic" anymore .. genes are just 4 chemicals in different arrangements. Anyway thats my position.

Yes son is now in opera company but only starting 2nd program this week. next one is a Rossini.

I used to read Scientific Americans .. still have an old one on physics of music. I am sure the new ones are more clear and uptodate.. but now I have good access to internet I look online.

Thank you @Misty-Mirrors your summation of opinions re MI made me laugh. I go with a vague genes and environment re causes .. but in conversation I have heard too many comments "its genetic" used in a tone, as an excuse for "not giving a damn".

Yes there are a lot of lies on the internet and salespeople.

I would love for a higher power to care about me personally but at the moment make do with living in a welfare society and a bit of work.

I am not sure that my son is successful yet, but he is working on it. Right now, he is in piano room and is recording pieces to upload, then I drive him to shops to busk, and I am going to a counsellor to learn about "boundaries".

My biological daughter is very successful, has a fancy job at a top university, doing a Phd and just bought a home in the inner city, but she is lacking in some essential things and that is very sad.

The other daughter works in the sex trade running poker nights and lives with her father and boyfriends. The family is very fragmented. I worked for family unity but it was not to be.

Last night I had a good night at my choir. The people are being nicer to me than I have ever experienced in my life .. maybe it means "I am goood enough" now. These are talented people who all have music degrees and work professionally in music .. so that is my consolation, camraderie with good musos.

Hello @Bec1985 and @Misty-Mirrors

I was shocked that the psychologist dismissed street people as criminals. I sold cards in Sydney subways when I was a child. But if she likes you and likes people that is important. Maybe she was just trying to protect you.

One lady I helped a lot became edgy when she saw me at the supermarket. I was friendly but she was ashamed and angry that I had seen how her great need. It was just pride. I felt gutted by her poverty which was among the most extreme I had seen in recent times with teenage kids from my son's school in sleeping bags on floor. I had it tough so it takes tough situation to shock me. etc .. but I did not do it for gratitude or friendship and looked at as part of learning about normal human reactions to things.

Regarding my daughters I am almost at the point where I accept the losses as grief like a death. I cannot do more. They dont really like each other. I now focus on living my life for my son and keeping myself busy and as happy as possible.

I am ok with my own company, lived alone before, so when son is ready to go I think I will be ok.

The world has changed a great deal with computers, but the boom has slowed down. My brother, ex husband and his friends were all gung ho about making big money from them. I dont theink they are evil, but I was very angry about them for a long time. I have had to get over it and face the fact that they are here to stay. So eventually I started using them again.

I had trained a little out at Digital before marriage .. but became very 'allergic' to them. Felt obligated to provide them for children, and a bit out of my depth in managing their use of them and I resented that I had to argue about them with my son .. but .. thats life.

I can see there are also wonderful things about modern technology and I have loved haviing access to all that knowledge. Now I even have the computer on the piano when an old score has been downloaded etc.