Thank you @outlander, you are such a beautiful person. I felt bad for worrying people unnecessarily. It has been rough grief wise, I am up and down with it. Some days good, other days it really hits me. And seeing my husband in pain just compounds it. But the latter is nothing new for us really, and we always manage to overcome and cope with it.
But I was thinking the other day that I have had many past traumas and grief and it might give closure just to talk to a counsellor about it. Probably will wait until we move though, as my committments here are snowing me under. I think it will be therapeutic to get it off my chest once and for all, incase repressed emotions are lurking around deep down somewhere. I just need to find a good qualified grief counsellor.
I just returned from my volunteer work and once again feel better for it. I ended up supporting a fellow worker who brought down in tears. She is a mother of two boys, one of who is autistic; and was evicted out of her current premises (long story). Although she had just found another home the stress and worry caught up. She is a sole parent under a very heavy load (long story), and she was struggling with a maddening head that hasn't let up for two days as well. She just broke down. I comforted her, listened and gave advice as much as I could.
It broke my heart to see her that way - wish there was more I could do (told her that). But I gave her the afternoon off which she appreciated. Her responsibilities have been so intense for so long that it is starting to take its toll. I am worried she will have a breakdown. I hope she sees her GP as advised. I am keeping my eye on her.
I speak with people every week that break down like this - Life is bloody tough sometimes. I feel so much compassion for them 😢
So so I am putting my feet up for a bit now and will cook dinner shortly. It's been quite cold, but sunny here today. The next four days will be full on for me - cleaning, open house, going out for Father's Day, doing some writing etc. But I seem to be able to keep putting one foot in front of the other (sprinting really lol). So that's a good thing. Will also have to check up on my friend who is grieving, like me. A good pair aren't we.
Hope all is okay with you @outlander - thank you so much for caring. And you do the latter consistently. Which is rare. Do you realise what special qualities you have? Anyone would be so lucky to have you as a friend or partner etc. You are genuinely loyal like me. You should belief in yourself more and feel confident when meeting others - you have much to offer just being you. Never forget that and it will get easier. ❤️
