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-Enigma-

Unknown userMember07 July 2017, 4:01 am AEST

-Enigma-

I have given up now - no one can say it was not without a fight. But then no one on heaven and earth would give a damn anyway. I gave from the heart and it was a joy to help others. I felt such peace with that. I never did it for anything in return ever, I did it because I truly cared and felt so much genuine compassion towards others. I was promised dreams and peace would come true even though I never asked. It felt so good to know I made someone's lives a bit better.

Why is it that people like me are then faced with so much heartache, injustice, trauma and adversity that seeks to do everything in its power to destroy that good, to take the little good and peace I had, to utterly destroy me. Why?

I had always been there when possible others times of need - now that I truly need someone I have been all but abandoned by those I knew and those in the spirit. I realise now everything was a lie and feel utterless helpless and lost. I have lost everything and don't see the point in being here. I hope I don't wake up to another day of despair.

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outlanderSenior Contributor03 July 2018, 8:11 pm AEST

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hello @Former-Member
its really good to hear from you!
wow you have been so busy!

im glad your daughter is turning her life around despite you needing the tough love thing happening. i really hope it all works out for you/her/your family.

im sorry to hear about your friend, i know itll be hard on you, hubby and friends. spend some good quality time with them qhile you can. create lasting happy memories too.

your friends sound really amazing and supportive of you. its really good to know you have offline supports.

im sorry your hubby had a (heart?) attack, i hope that everything is ok there. perhaps it was the stress of everything happening latley.

hugs

pop in when you can even though your busy ok

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:14 pm AEST

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Thanks my sweet @outlander. Yes, it was a heart attack. All will be good. I will drop in to say hello occasionally. Thanks for being so supportive. Thinking of you always. You deserve happiness too xxxx

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outlanderSenior Contributor03 July 2018, 8:16 pm AEST

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@Former-Member

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:17 pm AEST

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@Former-Member Such good news all round. I am so very happy for you.

Sherry 💕

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BlueBaySenior Contributor03 July 2018, 8:18 pm AEST

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Hi @Former-Member

so nice to hear from you.

I'm glad to hear your daughter is more settled. That's good news 😊 Even though it must have been hard fir you snd hubby. It's hard to put boundaries and rules but in your case it's working.

Thsts terribke news about your dear friend very sad.

I hope your husband will be ok. You poor thing you've had so much stress.

Its so nice thst your dream home is starting to seem real. I bet you can't wait to actually move in 😊

Take care @Former-Member

good to hear from you

❤️❤️BB

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:19 pm AEST

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Thank you @Former-Member. You are such a beautiful and special person whom I wish I knew in real life. Oh well, maybe the next. Hope all is okay with you - am always thinking of you with loving warm thoughts xxxxx ❤️

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:23 pm AEST

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Lovely to hear from you @BlueBay - thank you for your kind words. Yes, a lot of stress that we plan to put behind us when we move to our dream and start afresh - I can't wait. A new beginning - the start of a wonderful life. That's our pot of gold. Hope all is going well for you, and please give that gift of a beautiful granddaughter of yours, that will bring you much happiness and joy, a kiss and hug from me xxxx

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BlueBaySenior Contributor03 July 2018, 8:26 pm AEST

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I will def give Ayla a kiss and hug from you @Former-Member

A special long hug

take care xx

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:32 pm AEST

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Thanks so much @Former-Member. I feel the same way. 😀

I'm guessing that your hubby's mild 'attack attack' was a mild heart attack? I trust the specialist will be able to do something to put both of your minds at rest. There is so much they can do these days, pacemakers, bypasses, medication if necessary, etc. The good thing is that it was mild, but still a reminder that something isnt right. You can now set about rectifying things.

Thinking of you, and yours.

Sherry 🌹🍀

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Unknown userMember03 July 2018, 8:41 pm AEST

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Yes my dear @Former-Member, it was a heart attack - I not dare use the edit button lol 😂. His doctor did say his lower heart rate reading was low - could need a pacemaker but will have this confirmed when he sees the specialist. Thanks for caring my friend - always here for you 🌹

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