is it life... or paranoia.... or something else......

at this point in time im too scared to leave my house very often unless its to the shops or my new horse but even then im overly weary, maybe more than what i should be?

i feel like my mother and her bf have set up spies everywhere who trace my every move and when i go out they follow me around to see what im doing. i even worry there are spy cameras in the house. its freaking me out.

it first started when they threw out my meds but now its getting worse since everytime i meantion anythign to do with drs, psychiatrists or psychologists they flip out at me 😞

i have new ad tablets now after all of mine were thrown out and left without anything and its making me even more paranoid that they will find them.

i thought it would dissapear after the tension eased off but the tension ahsnt eased and these fears of mine are seeming to become more real to me