Home, Illness & family starting to treat me as their slave!

I have been home now for a few months since my last stay in mental health. I have never given up on myself or trying to get back out in the world. I have come back down off my anti-psycotics and am back into exercise , eating healthy and trying to get back to some socialising. I sweep the floors everyday and clean the bathrooms and toilets every few days, keep the rest of the house in good order. I think they are just expecting me to clean up after them. I don't want to be at home, I want to be at work and contributing to the family in that way, I am unable to at the moment and so I am home trying everything to get back on my feet, but it seems the harder I try the further away everyone seems to be getting. I see my Psychiatrist regularly and see my Psychologist as we go along. I am at the point where I don't know what to do. I try everyday to put on my best smile and get on with my day, its just getting harder to put that best smile on my face and laugh and enjoy my day when my family is never home anymore and on the weekends they are always doing things without asking me. I know that I have not been easy to live with, when you live with someone who has Chronic complex PTSD and has Bi-polar, it wouldn't be easy.

It feels as though as I am trying my hardest to learn to live again, that everything has changed and I have been left on the curb. Learning to live again seems to being killing the old me and i don't even know who the new/real me is?!

My Psych's say I am doing well and I am a lot better then I have been in the past, but I seem to be losing my family and I don't know what to say or do.

Dogman