Secret Party Planning...

Now imagine all that 'stuff' being made in a classroom that barely has enough room for the desks for the students and you will get a better understanding of what my classroom constantly looks like @CheerBear - they do their work and then they can 'play' with whatever arty/crafty things they can dream up - it is organised chaos - and I love it when they are creating - and they are well trained to clean up at the end of the day (you would not know that there had been any 'mess' anywhere). You would be awesome in a classroom with me CB

This is why I love TOR so much - can create magical rooms andtake my mind away from myself to put a smile on someone else's face

Thanks @CheerBear I loved seeing you pop in when you were funshine - brought a little light into TOR everytime you were around. It certainly did become a 'safe place' for everyone to have a little 'normality' on the forum (even if it was a crazy kind og normality lol). I started a new thread for all my 'dramas' the other day so TOR could remain a safe place - didn't want my 'stuff' to get in the way of the 'conversations' that happen on there. I suppose - in a way - the party planning thread has now become a second TOR and nest combined - a place to just enjoy the simple things in life - like birthdays.

I super, super, super love having you as a neighbour - and I super, super, super love what you have brought to the forum - intelligence, foresight, creativity and compassion - I would be proud to call you my friend both on and off the forum

Enjoy the drawing CB - will check back in after my appointment to get started on the party planning...

I love the little betweeny space too @CheerBear - our little rainbow footpath where everything is ok!!!

I am still struggling but had a chat today on helpline that really helped - sometimes it is a matter of taking my mind off things for long enough to get through the next minute, hour, day!

I am extremely tired tonight and still feeling really unwell. The biggest issue is if I go to sleep too early then I have nightmares - but if I go too late I feel too sick/out-of-it to fight off the flashbacks before sleep. It is a very, very fine balance that I have not even nearly got a handle on yet.... so party planning may be on the agenda for tonight - but I will need lots of help and encouragement

Thanks @CheerBear It is a tricky balance and I really am so tired tonight I am not sure how long I will last - so I know the early morning is not going to be good

I will get started here soon - just jump in when you see me if you like