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Does anyone ever REALLY care?

Does anyone ever REALLY care?

I've had trust issues ALL my life because of an abusive past. But it seems EVERYTIME I take the plunge and trust, eventually I get hurt. I've tried to be a loyal caring friend and always make excuses for there's and my shortcomings.....BUT......I'm scared to even think of friendship/relationship of any kind now. I'm sick of being dumped without being given a reason. Trying to work it out is torment and I'll never really know anyway as I can't see into someone's mind. Some days it's just too hard to keep going, even just one small step at a time. This is bizarre as I don't expect anyone to answer so why write...well maybe to prove my point....I really don't know. Now to face the day...

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@Kurra Don't know what happened to my reply this morning, it must have got eaten by cyber space.

Now to try and remember what I said..... The day has passed and I now have a pile of dirt on my driveway, that makes me excited, sad but true. Tomorrow I'll be wheelbarrowing it all around the garden and planting camellias, more excitement.

I hope you didn't lock yourself away with housework again today, or maybe just for a little while.

A friend dropped by, my only friend, she brought a bottle of perfume called Paris, smells Devine, I love a good perfume.

Sorry you didn't get the nails, eyebrows and eyelashes done but maybe tomorrow, or are you working??

I listened to music last night for a few hours, music is a lifeline at times, soul language, heart language.

Might watch house rules tonight. Hope you have your feet up relaxing and warm. Enjoy your evening.

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Good Evening @Maggie

I get excited about the smallest things too so I understand your excitement very well. I slept a lot today so I obviously needed it. I should be able to get my beauty treatments after work in the next couple of days.

Ahh music - the centre of my being. Although I'm not working in music now I did work professionally for well over 30 years. I still take the odd job to keep my hands in. I now work in a totally unrelated area.

I haven't checked what's on telly tonight. I might snuggle down in my bed with a good book.

Have a wonderful evening Maggie. 💕🎶💕

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@Kurra You did press my excitement button with being involved in music for well over 30 years. I sing and have written quite a few songs. I don't have any education in music, it just oozes, you'll get that!!!

Wont intrude more tonight. Keep resting and enjoy the beauty treatment tomorrow.

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Oh and you've pressed mine @Maggie! You're never intruding Maggie. My forum curfew is 10m Sun - Thurs otherwise I'd never get to work by 6am. 😃

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Work by 6am @Kurra, now that reminders me of my nursing days, and thank goodness they are over. That's a very early start for a.........mature (tongue in cheek) woman!!!!!!!

I'm always up at that time but whether I'm functioning is questionable.

I'm watching Sunrise on tv, good to catch up on the latest. Can't wait to get out to moving my dirt, waiting for the sun to rise, my fingers are numb atm.

I hope you are warm at work, have a good day, I'm pretty sure you will enjoy your day. Take care.

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Hi @Maggie
Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you. It ended up being a longer shift than I expected - 4 hours longer.

A mad as a hatter geriatric teenager Maggie. I hope you managed to move all that soil. I bet you're a bit stiff. Still it must be very satisfying.

Our building is nice and warm fortunately and the ducted heating warms the house up nicely.
Looking forward to hearing your news. 💕🎶💕

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OMG @Kurraevery bone I repeat...every bone aches... I did get it moved though. Light headed last night but very satisfied with myself. A long warm shower does wonders, and a warm bed. No sleep, I thought I might have got an hour but no, never mind, life will go on no doubt.

Planting today, in between showers, that's exciting. Can't buy any more plants til next pension day just over a week away, I might get some bulbs. I'm loving this at the moment, sure helps with the depression.

4 hours longer shift, many might complain about that, you seem to take it in your stride. Are you back at work right now?? I'm enjoying my first morning coffee.

Have a good day @Kurra from another mad as a hatter teen to another.

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Hi @Maggie
Just wondering how you're going today. I've had another very long day at work xo I'll be heading off to bed shortly to rest my weary bones. I hope you're OK
Thinking of you. Hugzzz 💕🎶💕

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@Kurra I'm pleased you are resting your weary bones, you do live a very busy life. I've been wondering how you are too.

I'm rattling round a pit, been in here for weeks. The only way out via the bottom, too deep to climb back up, but I'll find a light switch sometime.

I'm trying to push myself out the door with my friends little dog, she's staying with me at the moment and has to walk, it's the only way she'll go to the toilet ##%%!!!! Must be done though.

Thinking of you.

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