SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

Hi @Kurra

Glad to see you again - I hope you have been well - this site is so big now it would be easy to miss people

I am sorry your joints are fusing - yes - I know ankolising spondidlysis is something that makes it necessary to keep moving around and this can be hard in cold weather

Have the best day you can

Dec💗💖💢

D E P R E S S E D !!!

Can't sleep, so lythargic lately, but mixed, don't know how come I suddenly just can't do anything for days, barely dragging myself out of bed. I just did an online bipolar test. Thought I answered conservatively. Nor sure what to do with it now, but this was the result

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Really struggle understanding bipolar criteria. The whole reason I did the test is because I feel so depressed at the moment, but ccasionally get 'on top of the world' (so many unfinished projects & budget blowouts). But mostly this depression the hardest to cope with. Or is it the ptsd swings? // Best not think about it too much. At least its nice to not have the active anxiety & SI so much - just sleeping life away. Feels like I'm gonna merge with the furniture and simply disappear, quietly. // Wonder if I'll be able to push against it this time? Before it gets too hard. Its like trying to get out from under a giant waterlogged doona, my muscles just aren't strong enough. 🌿

Hi @Former-Member

That quiz doesn't look like much fun - I am trying to think of something a doctor said on a TV show on SBS - about depression and the medical quiz we are given about qualifiying for Medicare visits to a psychologist

They all concentrate on the negative side of our emotions - or the depression or bi-polar or whatever quiz - and they are not good for us really - because they are not balanced

But yes - I get it - I have been told I have SAD by my pain specialist - and okay - it fits and I can have it - and I don't have it today - it's sunny and I have spent a week sorting out my tax documents and I had a dream last night about where I had filed some more and bingo - there were about 20 there - but I am not going to disentangle my folders until I get to the accountant this afternoon -

I have felt better since I decided to see the accountant - I am an accountant but tax laws have changed - and I have no control over that - so let's get this over and done with. Not doing it was something that nagged at me - and I could not bear the thought of sorting those papers - but I have

So that's me - I have laughed and said often "I would join Procrastinators Anonymous" but I just can't get around to it" - the truth is that in the late autumn and winter I get moody and hate the short days

Maybe we can all hybernate for the winter - sleep as long as possible - I tend to be awake late at night - and then sleep in - but I do understand your post

Sopping, great doona - oh yes - I can just see that - I think mine gets like that now and again

Hugs though

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

I wonder about life sometimes and wonder if it's an illusion - but I have a belief system that suggests otherwise and I think it's real - but some of us cope better with general disorder in life itself - maybe one of the reasons for life is settling disorder - it sorts us out - that's for sure

Anyway - one of my reason for my belief is a very simple one - I wanted to study medicine and I was certainly intelligent enough but Dad had two more kids to educate and insisted on me leaving school when I finished year 10 - which was pretty good for girls back then. Later in life he admitted I was his best bet on the Bright Kids Scale and had his regrets but I got my own education regardless and feel rather pleased with it all in spite of the first disappointment

I found work was not enough so I studied accountancy at night-school - and then - I worked in accounts most of the time - though when my kids were young and then when I was a university undergraduate I did all kinds of work - still

All through it I could always get work in accounts - and did - and earned more than my ex-h and did well - I liked it and had the right kind of mind for it. One of my uncles was an accountant also - and we inherit gifts and gain skills - so actually sorting out all these papers was a pain in my spine rather than my mind - and I just didn't want to

The lack of money can make people miserable - terribly so - but having it doesn't make us happy either - having enough is enough - but still at the end

Nothing is sure but death and taxes - that is so true

I hope you feel better today - it's sunny here - but pretty cold

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

I have spent my life enjoying making things plain for people - actually I did a lot of private tutoring at university and got a teaching certificate at TAFe before I hurt my spine and was forced into early retirement

I have enjoyed my life really - perhaps I am a bit to clever at times

Yesterday a friend told me I am good at explaining - I should write a book but I am thinking - I could do that but what would I write about?

Ummmmmmmmmmm

Dec