SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

Hi @Shaz51 thanks, not too good today, not since talking with mum, and had bad nightvre back, my family breaks my heart, each one of them. Damned if ya do damned if ya don't situation. Feel nauseous thinking about it, them. Are you ok?, have ya own hands full I guess. My dog is happy 😕

Was finally motivated to 'do the right thing' and go visit my frail parents for mums 83rd B'day Thursday. This was the tx exchange that's left me in conflict, as usual. Really can't figure out why it always have to go south with them. Breaks my heart. This is the tx exchange:

ME: Hi MumDad, do you mind if I come visit / stay couple days next w'end 8th?
MA: If you want to, but I'm worried about you leaving your dog on his own
ME: Let me worry about my dog, I'm glad there's room at the Inn 🙂 Don't fuss, I can sleep anywhere. Plz let Cz [my estranged sister] & the others know I'm coming down if they want to organise time to catch up.
MA: I've given up trying to get them to come here, good idea but to much water has gone under the bridge and distance makes it hard its all about the choices we've maxe at another time when things were different
ME: Don't know what you mean, plz just let them know i'll be there 8-9th - if they want to pop over, get together while i'm close & cheaper for them, I'd like to see them. Just let them know - its not rocket science lol, thankyou
MA: No one comes here anyway, C# is only 1hr away and said shes posted my birhday gift, L# might be in china and G# is in a wheelchair now with his MS. i know its not rocket science and i am not 5 yrs old

Did this go badbad?, it feels like it has, but is it me? My depression! I don't know if I'm really wanted around 😞, feel so confused and sad and broken and alone... 💧☔🍃

@Former-Member you ae really wanted around @Former-Member XX sounds like your mum is telling you want is really happening around her

sending you hugs my darling

Hi @Former-Member

I know that was hard - and I wonder if we ever really get over it - probably not - but we can lead our own lives anyway

But it does sound as if your mother wants to see you - there's more than room at the inn - but your siblings

I think the problem has nothing to do with you - your siblings might have probs with the oldies -

But there's room at the inn for you anyway - go for it -

I'm proud of you for asking - well done

And I agree with @Shaz51

Dec

I don't know what your parents are like @Former-Member - but it seems you are welcome

Maybe things will be tense but it sounds as if your Mum was pleased - maybe you know them better

But always have the door open to leave it things do get edgy

But plan to enjoy the weekend - go bearing gifts or food or both -

Wow - I would have so loved it if my mother had wanted me to visit

Dec

I was just remembering your last trip to your mum`s @Former-Member

I have sent you an email @Former-Member hope you are okay

Hi @Former-Member How you described that exchange with your mother sounds very much like my mother - turning each positive thing (that you expressed) into a negative.

I'm sure you did everything right (not wrong at all).

Unfortunately she seems unable to focus on what you were offering (a visit) - & instead chooses to focus on other things.

I would feel not heard & not listened to in that situation.

I'm thinking of you.

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