Thank you @CherryBomb, @Jacques, @Mazarita & @MoonGal...
No, I don't remember discussing it with her before. She said I was the first person she told when it happened though & apparently I said he was "a seedy old man". I had ECT in 2006 & I have significant, permanent memory loss of both good & bad. I was advised by my psychiatrist to have it again a few months ago & I wrote a list of good memories I had made since 2006 like the new years day sunrises & camping trips to Fraser Island. Thankfully my psychiatrist didn't make me involuntary. ECT was also suggested in 2010 & strongly suggested in 2013 (I had to fake being okay to get out of hospital & away from that psychiatrist...)
When she was discussing it & the effects it still has on her life - it brought up the pain of my own ptsd from a sexual assault 13 years ago.
Sorry, I'm not very cheerful tonight....
My partner is cooking buckwheat & brown rice spaghetti with a tomato, caper, olive & lentil sauce.
We had salad that I made for the last two nights.
I'll have a decaf soy piccolo @Jacques!
I'm going to the beach tomorrow - I have that to look forward to in the short term at least. I am definitely safe @CherryBomb, but, yes, I feel horrible.
Thanks all & glad to hear other people had a lovely new years eve/day!
Namaste,
Anna