The Weekly Friday Feast

Hi @PeppiPatty

Yes, feelings can hurt, they can feel overwhelming and all consuming. I remember one time, someone told me emotions can't physically hurt you, as in they can't jump out of you and harm you. I found it hard to to take in at the time. This person who said this suggested that I just sit with them and see what happens. They suggested, painting, writing, listening to music to help me process them, while allowing myself to cry, scream and get angry, or even laugh. Yes, it was an emotionally painful journey, but allowing myself to feel them helped to take some weight off the load I was hauling around on my shoulders..

I guess what I'm saying is that an emotionally intense experience can be helpful, and painful at the same time.

P.S. what is kuihimo braiding @Crazy_Bug_Lady??? You are a lady of many talents.

Do you feel that @Crazy_Bug_Lady

Has leaned on her supports through this difficult time

@CherryBomb

Whom i Adore for your support and care and intuation.

Do you feel that your 'story,' is one that maybe some people cant do because of ...being vulnerable?? I dunno, when things get really hard for me I can hardly drive

But as getting stronger, I can crochet,,,,,,

I have slowly become used to the ebb and flow of my feelings. They come and they go.

I only SH some years after I stopped using drugs and never went back on them ... and now it may be even true that SH is in the past for me but I would never get cocky about that ... as I had a little flare up a few months ago when I had not done it in 12 years ... but it was only the once ... and I have kept reaching out ...

Believe you can break the addictive cycle ... @Crazy_Bug_Lady

I need to go and do things but I am always glad to talk and share with you online when I can

It is possible that the psychologist's loudness might have just been his intensity and concern given you revelations in therapy ... ie he didnt mean to frighten you but he couldnt completely control his emotions of concern and present himself in a level relaxed manner ... that might be a very good sign ... I dont know ...

... go gently with yourself

Kumihimo is a japanese braiding technique, this is the link I used to learn it. I tend to do the simple 8 strand braid, the more stands you use, the thicker the braid is.

Thirty degrees today where I am and I was out walking in the sun. Anybody else had a warm day? Here is a lime and soda drink for anyone who wants one. Must have a dash of lime juice cordial. One of my favorite non-alcoholic beverages.

I know @Appleblossom, I think he said as much. But a raised voice makes me panic. I know he did because he cares, but I was feeling more vulnerable than usual.

SH has been the only addiction I've had. I don't intend to take up drugs etc. I'm going just over months since I last really SH'ed. It sorta gets me down sometimes, wondering if I will ever be rid of these feelings. The worst part is, I've not really scarred. So when I get the urges, it's also made worse as I look at my arm and think I'm not even capable of doing that properly.

looks tricky @Crazy_Bug_Lady, like you need twenty fingers! Looks like it would be relaxing once you get the hang of though.

@Mazarita that drink looks deeeeelightful. May I have glass. Not so hot here in Melbourne anymore. We had a cool change, but our house hot still so I could do with a refreshing drink.