hello @Spinning
Just read your post and am wondering how you are feeling at the moment.
Have you managed to find some relief?
You mentioned seeing a gp which is good but did that person refer you to a psychologist or psychiatrist who can help you manage your symptoms?
I have had major depression for a long time and know how crippling it can get. I have also isolated myself for long stretches of time. I dont have agoraphobia but can find it extremely difficult at times to get out of the house into the garden.
I had a window of eight years without symptoms of depression. Looking back at how confident and relaxed I was back then, inspires me to keep on trying now.
Life circumstances, out of my control, several traumas set me back.
I am getting there now though and have faith in my psychiatrist.
I also have started believing in myself again which is a major factor in improving one's health.
Are you a reader? There are some very good books out there not just feed good stuff, real experience stuff. I am currently reading "Living in the now" by Eckhart Tolle. I am working hard at living by this principle. I have slip ups but feel that I am moving forward.
Hope was a huge word brought up in a discussion on here the other night about schizophrenia.
Hope is very understated and once rediscovered can be utilised in so many areas of our lives and our own being.
You can use this space to rant and rave, vent, say whatever within the forum guidelines of course.
We are all different, we all need help at different times, we are all in different stages of recovery.
You will find support here. keep writing
take care
living in the now