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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Hi @utopia - Understandable that you're upset. I can only guess they wouldn't let you out for a smoke because it would mean they would have to allocate a nurse to keep an eye on you but there would have to be CCTV cameras in the courtyard and they could watch you on the screen. Still you are an adult and can make your own choices. I'm an ex-smoker so I perfectly understand that a lozenge just won't cut it - I'd let you out for a smoke. Maybe have a chat to the unit manager to see if there is a smoking policy?
Take care and get some rest.
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
OMG @utopia really a lozenge to replacea ciggie craving - not cool !!!
I haven't been around much lately and have just caught up on how you are going. I hope that you start to settle a little more at night soon and can get some long and restful sleeps happening - I know how frustrating it is not sleep 
Sending you all my love and huge hugs (and still sitting beside you even when you can't see me 
)
Zoe 
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
That is so crappy @utopia
Yeah - I know this is the Nanny State and smoking has bad press but it's still legal to smoke in designated smoking areas -
You have every right to feel really angry about this - I know how it feels to have to sneak out for a smoke - not a good feeling - but to have that denied is so much worse
Thinking of you
Dec
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
No responses need @utopia but one given anyway 'cos I wuv you
You know yourself best and if you are saying that another 5 days isn't long enough then they should be listening to you. You are not being a 'spoilt brat' you are being realistic. You have been struggling for far too long now and you deserve both the respite and the best care given to you that is possible. The mere fact that you are saying that it is all too much for you should be a red flag to the staff that you need ongoing and more long-term help here my friend - I so hope that they can see that you are not ready to leave so soon and the ramifications could be more destructive for you. I am sending YOU all my love and some angry thoughts through the atmosphere to the hospital STAFF to do the right thing by you.
Thinking of you and sitting with you always my beautiful little cocky friend...
Zoe
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
Hiya @utopia I hope you are getting some rest tonight and you have some sleep. I am thinking of you and sending you a huge hug to help comfort you tonight.
Love and hugs
Zoe
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