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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
im not in a good headspace atm @utopia but hugs to you
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Aw - you are having a rough time @utopia
I think I had a lot of that without the smokes - I do not like a lot of sprayed stuff - though I use hairspray for my fine and uncontrollable hair - but I could live with the industrial stuff and perfume stuff
And rehashing your thoughts and crying - this is hard work
I hope things get easier - it takes time I guess and you have gone off your medication for now I think - I am not sure how long between different medications - not easy
Still thinking of you - I wish I could be more helpful - my own dark days tell me that you live in between the good parts and the yukky parts and the peaceful moments and the shadows
I care
Dec
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oceangirlSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia thinking of you. me personally I wouldn't do the ECT treatment- no way. But the choice is yours. I would try the TMS you may get a longer admission with this too. Without the risks!
@Former-Member my specialist mention TMS a little while back too- I was not keen at the time. Where did you find information about TMS? I have read somewhere that TMS is in the public system too but not many public hospitals have this treatment available- the difference in the public system you are not admitted into hospital.
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia
I am glad you got a laugh out of the pics in my post - that was hours ago now - I have been so busy today
I got another "thinking" clip art
Oh yeah - it's a bit of a puzzle - all this decision making - I have spent a lot of money this week - I haven't spent much lately so I could do this - but looking at this thinking-clip-art I do put things off because I don't want to spend money - but I do love it when I get something I need
I hope you have a peaceful night
Dec
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SaharaSenior Contributor
Wow, @utopia,
ECT does sound like a big step. Maybe it's best to give the new anti-depressant a try first? You will have to talk it over with your psychiatrist... try not to be too hard on him... it does sound like he wants to help you. Although, it's always good to get a second opinion, too.
You sound kind of angry- which I think is a good thing- it's much better to by angry than to be numb. You are a little angry at your Mum and also at the nurses and the psychiatrist. I can understand anger as I have had a lot of it in my life.
Lets hope that today is a better day for you and that some clarity comes your way.
Hugs. xxx
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