My Hospital Stay

@oceangirl. I was thinking 'a sane person - all the patients are sane here - it's more the outside world that is "nuts". Lol.
Then I saw @Faith-and-Hope post - so yes - a SANE person. Maybe I could let everybody 'bid' to be my SANE Forum person. See if I get any other offers. Those that can come and bring me cigarettes and chocolate - in the real world - will win the auction.
@Former-Member. Yes I discovered the hot chocolate today - I don't drink tea or coffee - so I've already consumed two drinks. I'm sorry the public system doesn't offer a few more options. Not even cordial! !! That's rough. Maybe your family could bring you in a few treats.
To @Owlunar @Former-Member & I forget everyone elses names (no offence) - I'm okay. It will take a few days to settle in. But I've met some nice people in the smoko courtyard. I've decided that giving up alcohol and cigarettes at the same time is too much, too hard. So I'm still smoking.
I might use this post to keep a daily journal - as I didn't pack a notebook or paper. Or food, or thongs, or extra cigarettes or cash. Not well organised.

@Former-Member. I love the picture of the dogs hugging. I needed that hug. So thank you.
Hugging you back. ♥

Thank you @Former-Member. Yes practic works best for me. So I appreciate your response. No gardens or grass here. A courtyard with a few non flowering plants. So no wildlife - except for ants and flies.

Day 2:
Woke up at 10.30 hearing my psychiatrists voice asking me how I am. Thought I was dreaming. No he's sitting at the end of my bed on a chair. Spoke to him for 15 minutes. His plan is to make a plan in about 5 days, after detoxing from the alcohol. That way he can see what my moods are really like. That makesssense to me. But I didn't think I waa detoxing. Didn't think 4 cans a day would need detox.
By midday I was really tired again and trying not to fall asleep. Alot of the patients were out on day leave and no activities / groups on in the afternoon.
I was get really adgitated and feeling emotional - so I asked for a prn - to calm me down. Then fell asleep again - nightmares - woke at 5.45 & rushed down to get dinner.
Adgitation started setting in again around 7pm. This time I was crying. Not knowing what to do. Feeling lost. So the nurse suggested the sane prn - but to take 2 instead of one - because it would work better with my detoxing body. Then I cried because I was detoxing - because that is something I am responsible for.
After 20 minutes the meds worked & I was no longer shaky or irritable.
I had my first shower in about 3 or 4 days & myfirst hair wash in over a week. That was enough to make me feel a lot better.
I'm just about to take the sleeping tablet the psychiatrist put me on - but tomorrow I'll ask him to make it a prn instead - as it took a while to come off them last time. His recommendation is 2 every night. I'll take 1 tonight because I have to, but hopefully won't need them after that.
So I'll say goodnight & hope everyone, whether at home or in hospital is safe and doing okay.
Love to you all. ♥♥♥♥♥

Hugs @utopia 💟💟