My Hospital Stay

Hi @utopia - hope you are doing well. Thanks for sharing your hospital experiences - I've never been hospitalised and to be honest the thought of it really terrifies me, I really need to be surrounded by my "stuff' and my pets and having control of what I do and when I do it. Unfortunately after what's happened to me in the workplace and other things in my life it's starting to look inevitable that I be hospitalised. My doctors keep telling me to consider it as my condition is deteriorating and I keep resisting. Like yourself it's the ongoing battle of employer / lawyers / workcover / VCAT - the toll on my health has been high and eventually something will happen and it won't be good. You've clarified a lot of stuff about being in hospital that's put my mind at ease and I'm really thankful for that. I'm glad you have got some benefit out of it and I hope you continue to make progress with your recovery. How did your GROW meeting go?

Hi Dugga

I have had my hospital stays in the past - for emotional reasons and physical reasons - there seemed to be so many in the past

Now I am not at all interested - I have had enough - and like you I am better off with all my stuff at home - and my cat - in fact - I am sure the cat is the most important thing I have around

Lately I have had my own problems to think about and don't really want to talk about - but I have considered that being in my own home is where I want to stay for the rest of my life -

Whatever we have had in our past leaves it's marks on our body and soul and heart - the body never forgets and it makes for painful times in our present - but yes - we do have consider everything

Dec

Walking with you @utopia ..... 💜💕

Stay strong ... self-care ... take it in baby steps .....

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Sometimes it's ok to sleep the day away, @utopia, as long as you are taking safe levels of medication. I remember being in the same place as you are now, quite a few times. I would take the calming tablets and just lay down and let them do their job... it was a nice surrender and an escape. Sleep can be so beautiful. When you wake up, I hope you can put on some relaxing music or a nice, uplifting DVD. Or perhaps call a friend of the phone.

I am thinking of you. I hope you are able to get back into hospital, if that is where you would like to be.

I have never been hospitalized due to MI, but when I was at my worst, I kind of wish I had been. I would have been nice to be looked after and feel secure. I actually kept working right through the worst of my depression, which is amazing when I look back on it... I wonder why I felt the need to do that? I put so much pressure on myself.

Eventually, I fell in a heap and called in sick one day to work, and then just never went back there. They were pretty sympathetic, amazingly. I can't remember what b.s. I told them now, but I couldn't care less about the job by then, anyway.

I went home to live with my parents for a while, but they were not too sympathetic- I was pressured into getting another job straight away, by them. So much for being cared for- I would have been better off going into hospital and being looked after by strangers!

My parents thought "working hard" was the cure for every human ailment! That's probably why my sister became a workaholic and I just became rebellious.

Sending you kind thoughts, @utopia.

hugs @utopia hope you get some rest and feel better