redheadSenior Contributor
will it get better
I want to know if it's possible to recover, I've had mental health issues my entire life and it just keeps getting worse.
I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 17 and did therapy for a year or so and was on meds that never helped. Then after school my anorexia got bad. I then I first ended up in hospital after a serious suicide attempt. Things just got worse from there. I stopped going to therapy a few months later because it wasn't helping. I was self harming everyday and often needed medical attention. It wasn't long til one of my suicide attempts put me in a coma. I was so angry that I was still alive. Couple of months later I went to a rehab program for my ED and self harm. I hated those 5 months but it did stop my ED. But I was still self harming. Then over the last year and a half nothing has changed I still feel like I'm just spiraling downwards. I did dbt for a while and now I'm in therapy twice a week. I've had 44 psych admissions due to suicidal ideation and self harm. I constantly feel depressed, I hear voices, I see things, I occasionally get manic, I can't stop my emotions or urges. I'm pathetic. Will it ever get better. Will it go away
I don't even know why I'm sharing my story. I guess I just want to find hope again. I don't know how much more I can fight my demons...
I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 17 and did therapy for a year or so and was on meds that never helped. Then after school my anorexia got bad. I then I first ended up in hospital after a serious suicide attempt. Things just got worse from there. I stopped going to therapy a few months later because it wasn't helping. I was self harming everyday and often needed medical attention. It wasn't long til one of my suicide attempts put me in a coma. I was so angry that I was still alive. Couple of months later I went to a rehab program for my ED and self harm. I hated those 5 months but it did stop my ED. But I was still self harming. Then over the last year and a half nothing has changed I still feel like I'm just spiraling downwards. I did dbt for a while and now I'm in therapy twice a week. I've had 44 psych admissions due to suicidal ideation and self harm. I constantly feel depressed, I hear voices, I see things, I occasionally get manic, I can't stop my emotions or urges. I'm pathetic. Will it ever get better. Will it go away
I don't even know why I'm sharing my story. I guess I just want to find hope again. I don't know how much more I can fight my demons...
