Feels like the system needs help too...

im going to rap up any posting about my partner who have not been able to get any help for her what so ever, on and off the forums, We are splitting and she is moving out with the kids, i thinking it will be joint custody, and i will stay in the house, to either sell up or get the mortgage on my own. For me nothing really changes if she goes or not, obviously it will be nice to not get kicked out of your own home or abused in it, but i stood my ground now for about 3 months that she has gotta get help or i not getting back together after she called it off as it the right thing to do... topic is completly taboo now and while it wont help her if she leaves, not being able to abuse me as i will only be there for help routine dont work either. I wil go out and exoerience people with real emotions again and forget the past for a while, kids will still be my real only focus though,

while the forums are good, so you got documentation of your thoughts, they no help for my partner, she even read all my stuff just last week and that still didnt help her. The forums did help me understand how bad the phych system is though or how there is virtually zero understanding of personality disorders, where there is no violence or depression, i think i got even a bit unlucky with some of it, but through, friends, family, medical, police, courts i seem to come up with zero every time... and i came up with zero for a long time too, but once i had th smallest bit of information on bpd and morbid, it all does make sence and i was so willing and confident that i could help this if done right, i was determined, my heart was in it 100 percent and its usaullly hard to stop someone suceeding if they truely believe as well. But this was a big fail by me with extreme conseques for our family, most of all kids and my ex partner...i dont have really a give up bone in my body, but the system nearly is built to make you give up it is that bad...

im posting this and the post will finish off later, it might be a long one