JamesBluntusContributor
Need help coping.
Well, my friend has been suicial in the past and is suicial again. She has attempted at least twice in the past and I've lost count of the amount of times she's talked about it. I've known her for 5 months but, and this part scares me to be honest, in that 5 months, she's become like a sister to me and I genuinely love her. Everytime I think about losing her I get the shakes and my heart starts racing.
As I said, she's been suicidal in the past and has talked about it, but has only attempted it a couple of times in the past (and the mental health system is doing bugger all to assist because she is refusing to get help, even when she presented to the ED for attempting, they didn't even do a mental health assessment, just fixed her up and sent her home 2 days later). She's in the worst state head wise since I've known her. Anyway, today she started talking about suicide again. I did my best and all I could think of to talk her out of it, however, she deleted her Facebook, and then when we switched to communicating by text she stopped replying after sending me this: ".....bye". This was this afternoon at 3:50pm.
I'm more worried than usual as it feels different this time. Two significant things have happened to her in the last two days that have sent her in a spin which has prompted this and I'm worried that the radio silence means she's gone and done it. I've got no one I can contact. This is the worst feeling, not knowing. I have already broken down uncontrollably in tears once. I am just wondering when the next one is going to come.
Does anyone have any advice about coping with this feeling?
