Who am I?

Who am I?

Lost in the forest of stigma
Lost in the reality of discrimination
Lost in my own mental health
Lost in a world I thought was mine

Who am I?

Slowly stripping away the trauma of the past
Slowly facing the demons I avoided
Slowly remembering more details
Slowly allowing the pain to enter

Who am I?

What kind of mum am I that cannot function?
What kind of wife am I that causes pain?
What kind of friend am I that cannot love?
What kind of person am I that is self centred?

Who am I?

Life is a precious gift, I only get one chance
Life is full of changes, I have changed
Life is full of pain, I have survived pain
Life is there to live it, I have lived it

Who am I?

The clouds of grey hide the blue sky
The fog in my mind makes it difficult to think
The storm in my head makes it feel impossible
The wind of change is picking up force

Who am I?

I am a survivor
I am a fighter

I am not the person who wants to jump
I am not the person who wants to leave

I am the Phoenix
I am the Butterfly

It might hurt to burn
It might hurt to transform

But I will

This is for the men who abused me as a child
This is for the people that fought a civil war
This is for everyone who discriminates me

I will live my life
I will find out who I am
I will count my blessings
I will be stronger than ever

I will be me.