im back..... i think

Morning @outlander - been MIA this weekend. Sorry about that. Have thought about you and

Just catching up on posts.

That is not good that even your underwear drawer is not private. I assuming this is your sister you are talking about? If I knew where could be private enough I would tell you! If I come with anything I be sure let you know.

I'll be around today during the work day if you need me my friend xx

@outlander - I have missed so much the past few days. The weekend has been busy. Hobbling around because i have burst blisters on my heels

You mentioned this on Friday

"i know but im still embarrassed being a female makes it weird for me- isnt it only men who do thathmm Anony18 maybe i should ask you too"

If you still like to ask me, please do. Happy to answer whatever it is you want to ask me...if you remember what it is.

Not a problem @outlander. Definitely easier to respond when on the computer. Take your time. Am here all day. Procrastinating at work. My last week here!

alright so i can come back here and chat chat chat away to you which im very pleased about @Anony18

i have missed you so much since youve been gone but in know you were 'with' me even through your not online.

your last week at work? are you moving? im sure youve told me that but sorry ive forgotten

with that question i still do remeber it, i asked F&H, cheerbear and shaz has seen it as well and they have given me the answer- im trying to keep that question a little low profile so ill tag you onto my other thread where that question is adn you can answer or leave it as you like ok?

and yes im pretty upset and angry about the draw. i never got into anyone elses draws not even my pops unless im asked to by that person who owns them and i get exactly what they want out of exaclty the draw they tell me too. i think its rude to go through other peoples draws.

my sister comes out last night and said ive put your clothes that you had on the floor into the basket. i said thank you- i left the clothes folded on the floor as i had to duck out quickly and was putting them away when i got bac. and then when i went into my draw this morning of all things my underweear had been put away and not by me and they were my new ones that i had brought that were WITH my folded clothes that i was going to put away. hmm. and my mother has been into that draw so many times as well. and i knew she was in there recently as she put an envelope with her savings in it in the draw and i didnt stick it in there.

so now i really dont ahve anywhere private and now it doesn surprise me if they go through my car and things too now 😞

as if i needed this right now and as if i didnt feel trapped and out of control already now i find they go through my intimate draw! mind you if they need a storage spot stick it in my socks draw- whihc is RIGHT underneath my intimate draw.

its not alot of private things in there but it did have my nans funeral bit from the news paper and also the cards ive been writing to her on her bday and xmas- please dont judge on that

so now i really have no where. i dont know what to do or where to go. it really set my depression even lower as it makes me think what kind of person am i if they are going through my initmate draw wow thats just really scooped to a new low for me 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞

aww you poor thing i hope those blisters heal quickly for you

i also tagged you in the question comment as well-its under " who am i "

Yes definitely chat chat chat away and I will respond as best as I can and as quickly as I can. The weekend been busy for me. Went on a hike half day Sat before going to buy my bosses a parting gift then date night with the new guy. Sunday I had to reject this other guy who was keen. I felt really bad because I did kiss this other guy a few weeks ago (before this new guy came into play) but I realise how much I am starting to like this new guy because spent most weekend with him and I do miss him when am not with him. It makes me really scared because i feel vulnerable. However through my busy weekend @outlander I thought about you. I was going to log on last night to see how things have been but I crashed!

Yes next Wed I start my new job! Saw your tag and I will have a look at it after I post this.

That is not very respectful of your privacy. I remember when my mum opened my cupboard and saw my diary when I was 14. The first thing I did was burn that book. I think now and wish I didn;t as those were my intimate feelings that I had and memories. But that is how I felt at the time and it made me not want to write in a journal for fear. But now gotten back to it and am lucky they respect my privacy to some extent. I really wish I knew a real private place that they won't know so at least you have that security and can build up and not spiral lower into your depression. Are you seeing a psych anytime soon or can muster the ability to call up a support line to talk through this? To help you from spiralling lower? If not, I will definitely try the best I can.

In terms of this... "its not alot of private things in there but it did have my nans funeral bit from the news paper and also the cards ive been writing to her on her bday and xmas- please dont judge on that" - No judging and I still write and talk to my dad who has passed away 11.5 years ago. It is this connection that makes us closer to them, feel closer. If you are like me, then you believe they are around you and looking down on you, guiding you and holding you in the times when you are struggling.

ooh hows the date night go @Anony18 wow that is a busy weekend for you. my weekend didnt go quite the way i planned and its till continuing on again last night and today. i think i have a serious problem

ooh a new job whats this new job your doing- i remember you saying you were applying for another job and you did get it but that seems like a while ago that you said that.

im not seeing a psych at all at the moment, just my gp every week and my nurse every 3 and ive got an emergent appointment to see my psychiatrist on thursday due to the course of the weekend

i had a diary when i was younger too and guess what they read it then too so i never wrote anythign at all down except for my school work assignements excursion dates and the upcoming dates to do with the horses so ive ever kinda had privacy in that sense i kinda understood in that age jsut to make sure i was ok so i wasnt too bothered angry yes but i got where she was coming from with the caring sense

im glad im not the only who who still 'talks' to a love one who has passed. i really do miss her aot and sometimes writing to her and 'updating' her like a pen pal help me to cope sometimes

Hi @outlander, I'm here

What's happening for you this afternoon?