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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Former-Member @Determined @Anony18 @soul @Faith-and-Hope
i was lil-caterpillar
im back... i think...
im treading very very lightliy at the moment
@Anony18 i also seen those pics you posted from your hike. they were beautiful and also the artworks too thank you for thinking of me
F&H - i also read on my depression thread as well. thank you for careing even though i left
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outlanderSenior Contributor
@Anony18 all i want to do is SH again and the urges are still strong
nothing else seems to work anymore
i didnt SH for 2 months until last night
and yes the mods are quite good but sometims the urges take over either way
hmm well ive withdrawn from everyone and everythign and im avoiding completely everything
but im being forced to go to a stupid baby shower for some cousin of mine that i very very rarely see nor do i speak to them or the people going so this will be so much fun and im trying to think of a way to get out of it
my mother and no one else will know about the SH and the si@#hes so im trying to be very careful with them
and the rest i dont know
i dont really care what happens to me anymore- im not worth trying to give it my all anymore
i guess whatever happens happens whether i want it to or not just like the SA and everything else
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Anony18Senior Contributor
Try to resist those urges @outlander. I know it has to be tough but try. A huge HUG for you my friend.
Am aware you may not care what happens to you but we all care here on the forums. Me saying this is not to pressure you or make you feel bad. Not my intention. Just to know I am here whatever it is and I care a great deal for you.
I saw this just then and thought of you xx
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outlanderSenior Contributor
thanks @Anony18
i seriously just want to cry to release something... anything... but i cant
thansk for being here Anony and i know you mean well its written all in your personality.
and that quote is very true
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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NikNikSenior Contributor
Hi @outlander
You can do it. I've seen you do it before and I believe in you.
Would me posting that list of distractions be helpful?
What ended up helping you last night?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
i dont want to keep fighting @NikNik i dont have any energy to keep fighting it
today so far ive tried art, cleaning and keeping busy but i am sore atm, doing the clothes washing, watching a funny tv series but its not helping me very much
ive tired NikNIk
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Anony18Senior Contributor
@outlander do you think crying will help release some of these feelings and inklings of SH? If so, are you able to watch a "crying" movie to help with that.
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NikNikSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
@Anony18 i cant cry- theres nothing there- its jsut overwhelmingly sad with extremely strong urges to SH
@NikNik talking to you helped abit over emails/forum and then i went to bed and lsitened to music and tried to focus on the words on the songs and jsut closed my eyes hoping id go to sleep
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Anony18Senior Contributor
That is fair enough @outlander. i will just sit with you then if that is ok.
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