im back..... i think

I am sorry you not doing too well my sister @outlander xx

found out yesterday I have a Hiatus Hernia

I know you are thinking of me too @outlander

You are a very kind and sensitive person - and know things have gone a little sour for you

So take your time and hide for a bit while you grow a thicker skin and remind your mother that too much responsibility made you really ill - and that upset tum - was it yesterday - tells me that it was far too much to have everyone relying upon you

It's really hard - I know this

I will be okay - I am not to bad tonight but I will be going to bed soon - I may have a few down spells but that's okay - I know it passes as horrible as it is

Dec

omg @Shaz51 im sorry to hear that! can that be treated?

ive had a right few bas**rd of days- ill leave that for the 'when is it time for hospital thread' though

ok my sister @outlander

@Owlunar

i need to hide but at the same time i feel i cant do that either as i then feel like im running away from everythign i unfortuantley i cant.

oh yes that stomach thing- i found out it isnt gastro at all. my body has found two new ways to scare the shite out of me.

the first one is the gastro type thing where i get diarrohea and super super bad stomach cramps and constant gagging and throwing up. this happens when i get too stressed or triggered which is anything and everything atm which ive found out three time now. gastro is constant for 24/48hours not jsut everytime im triggered. so thats the first one

the second one is also scary. my temperature (body temp suppsoe to be around 36.6)- mine now drops to 35.5 and i start shaking uncontrollably yet i feel hot and sweaty!

so these are now just adding to everything else

Wow @outlander

As horrible as all that is - you have the perfect excuse not to look after your little sisters - you can't do that if you are throwing up and running back and forth to the loo - it's just not on

I get hot and sweaty when my back pain is bad - I know how that is - and I can get stomach cramps and sort of shiver - I think I know what that feels like for you - it's really unpleasant

Thanks for warning me about the hospital post - I can avoid that but it's okay - nothing you have written has given me a hard time -

I haven't asked for help from the moderators before but today I did and maybe that's why I feel better this evening anyway. I was told to stick to the easier threads and not the hard ones which is much better - and also told that other people do this - or stay away from the forum.

I will be going to bed soon - but does your doctor know you have this gastro thing - maybe some medication from the pharmacy can help with that - it sounds really distressing

Dec