AunicaNew Contributor
A Bad Experience - Why did this happen?
To give context, I'm a 22 y.o. Woman diagnosed with Depression and Social Anxiety. I have two phobias, one of men, which is more of a workable fear, and one of dolls. I have other things that I think I might have but this experience kind of stopped me wanting to talk to another psychiatrist.
A while ago, I went to a psychiatrist for medication and to see if I could get anything new to help me. Most of my previous medications had worked but the side effects were pretty harsh. So I was in the first session and was telling her my issues. I start to talk about my having multiple personalities, after the depression and social anxiety issues, because I truely do believe I have it. I talk to people in my head, they have distinct personalities and such but I can keep it in control. Then she kind of scoffs at me and says I don't have it, even though I haven't really begun to explain it. In a bit of spite I tell her my psychologist had said I might have it but it's just like a more sublime emotional thing because I go into things that are more like modes(?). And she just ignores that.
So, we're getting to the end of it and she tells me she doesn't believe I have depression because it doesn't last for the 8 years I've had it, saying people don't have it for that long. I was honestly upset with that, beause I have been diagnosed with this issue and I've been dealing with it for years. Then she dishes out the worst thing I could hear, "I don't think it is depression, it sounds more like it's part of your personality."
As I write all this, I even become overwhelmed by how sad it makes me. When someone outright tells you that it's just your personality, you just feel like you don't know if you'll ever not be depressed. I don't know how I'm supposed to react to this...
Should I just find a different psychiatrist and try to figure out these issues I still have?