BellaswanContributor
Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
Ive struggled with mental illness all my life. Ill be 40 next week and in the last 4 years have been under the care of a psychiatrist and psychiatric nurse trialling medications and hoping they'll work.
In the last 6 months Ive had my diagnosis changed from anxiety/depression to a mood disorder. Bipolar. But no specifics on 1 or 2. I dont get psychosis but i definitely get the mania. We've also talked about borderline being an issue on top of anxiety.
Problem is. Ive seen things in the past. They look like demons. They sound like demons. But not in the biblical sense. Just how i can describe them. I hear one voice over and over in my head. I call it the "demon" it tells me im shit. Im fat. Im ugly. Im a loser. Noone loves me. It tells me the guy im with doesnt want me. It tells me so much. Even to harm myself. I was put on anti psychotics again to try quieten them but all they do is make me hungry and fatter and more depressed.
Does anyone else have voices or this inner critic voice? How do you cope?
Because it's making me seriously want to die. I hate myself so much because of it. I just want some peace and quiet.
Thanks