Schizophrenia first hand

hello @Zam

Thank you so much for your response.

You are following your heart and your son means the world to you.

Study can be taken up at any age. People in their eighties and nineties are starting again not that I mean you need to wait that long

As for your dream to help others within the mental health system, you are actually already doing that just not being paid for your heartwarming gestures.

You have delved into your anxiety and found the underlying reason for your stress. This will help your health and state of mind moving forward as you would already know.

Your son will have such a wonderful relationship with you as you are a person who has empathy.

The two of you will give much to each other

I am very close to both of my sons. change is happening for my older son; he is making demands that are impossible for me. Verbally abused me again for not acting immediately on his commands. So I am licking my wounds and thinking about my boundaries at present. Tomorrow is another day.

I wish you both all the best.

I hope that you can stop by every now and again; give us an update on your new journey.

stay safe and enjoy now xx

I can hear your love and understanding come through your post. @Purification

I also had a partner with Schizophrenia. It is sad and tragic and difficult to manage.

If he does not fully realise the level of impact his actions had on you, then it is probably wiser to keep living separate. I made the mistake of being too compliant with my ex hausband's requests and demand. I would not do that now ... 30 years later ... I can see how bad it was for me .... but people and relationships are different ... you can take things slowly and see how the court situation evolves and how he works with his diagnosis.

Take care of you.

Hi @Purification,

sorry to hear what you have had to go through with your ex boyfriend. From the sounds of it he is a danger to you and i think distance is a good thing. That is great and all that you want to help him and so on but you need to look after yourself.

You said it was early stages for him with his diagnosis? if that is the case, is he on medication?

i can only image how hard it must be to be with someone who has schizophrenia. I can speak from the opposte side of that and well speaking for myself when i was off medication i would drag my ex partners into my delusions and it was not fair at all to them.

Also you mentioned you wish you could do more to help him, but honestly there isnt much you or anyone could do for him if he doesnt want help. One of the worst things with this illness is that you dont feel sick and feel completely sane, so when people constantly tell you that you need help or acting strange and whatever else, it makes those people telling you that seem to have something wrong with them and you will push them away fast..

I dont know about your ex boyfriends symptoms and can not speak for him but i guess my advice is to look after yourself. Put yourself first.. he has hurt you before and if he isnt getting any treatment, i would stay clear of him for now..

im sorry i could not help more. If you have any actual questions i can answer but yeah i really do hope things get better for you

@Purification that is good to hear you are putting yourself first and seeking counselling and legal aid.

sorry that I'm not overly good at offering advice. It is easier for me to answer questions rather than offering my opinion on what people should do in certain situations because I don't trust myself as being the best decision maker, let alone trying to do that for other people if that makes sense. With questions I can just answer stuff through my experience and hopefully that helps.

That is good I think that he said he is taking medication but it is very possible he isn't on the right one for him. If he is still having delusions and other symptoms, that seems to be a good indicator he needs to be on a stronger dose or a different medication.

i myself went on about 6 different medications while being hospitalised before I finally got put on the right dose and medication. It can be a long process before symptoms get a bit better and even longer if he doesn't want to be on medication because he can just stop taking them and it does not take long at all for symptoms such as delusions to come back.

triggers are always going to be a big thing on or off medication. So it's good to be aware of that.

i myself have never forgotten anything I said or did while in full blown psychotic episodes. But I did talk a lot with a girl when I was in hospital who also had schizophrenia and she said she could not remember a lot of stuff. So it is possible that some don't remember or that they try really hard to block it out.

what is your gut feeling on him being sorry and wanting to fix things? Do you still want to be with him? If so, he is lucky to have you but if you don't want to be with him I would back off from him as much as possible or he might get the wrong idea.

you said you don't know what to believe so maybe just go off your gut feeling and do whatever you feel is right for you.