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Something’s not right

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One word, that sums it up.

This morning I have nothing left to say.

I keep up a positive facade, smile at my husband, made plans to see a friend, who's sick, have to see my GP and know who to call for admission if I need to.

I'm sorry I can't be optimistic, I think I'm realistic and the waiting game is destroying me inside.

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Hi @Former-Member & all

Hope you had a nice Sunday!

I've had a little bit of a rest today, taking it easy, meeting with a friend, catching my breath a little. Talked about re-admission. Not my favourite, but I'll see how I go the next few days.

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Thats sounding so much better @Former-Member

Glad you caught up with a friend. You will do what you need to do and whats best for you, but sounds like you have some time to think on it and as it's sunday you can leave it for a bit 🙂

I've had a bit of a long day, i'm tired! oh so tired lol! But took kids/dog for a walk and playground earlier while there was even some sun out which was nice.

Hugs, let us know how you go,

lj

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I just feel like I fight a losing battle @Former-Member

New territory. I'm just scared about the future.

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yes, but you are fighting @Former-Member and you are so very strong, and i've learnt from you over the time you've been here.
I'm always scared of the future and whether or not i'll be able to cope.. but in reality i can't know until i get there, and then from past experience i know that i've made it through a lot of crap so will probably again.. thinking about the what if's never helps me though as they get bigger and bigger in my head and the worst possible case scenarios get more real than the more likely situations. However... i know its easy to 'say' all that! Here with you
lj

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Thanks @Former-Member<br><br>I will try to keep your words in mind. At the moment I just feel like I have taken a massive step back. Life's thrown me a curve ball I never had to deal with and even though "in the big picture" it won't destroy me, but it pretty much will wreck a lot I have worked hard for all my life. Change of direction I guess.

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oh no @Former-Member sometimes it just seems as though we can't catch a break. I'm sorry that its something pretty life changing though 😞 I hope that there will be a silver lining to see later on. I'm still looking for a silver lining with things that are going on here too...
Hugs
lj

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Hi @Former-Member,

just wanted to say hi and I'm sorry you've been thrown a curve ball. I always find change when I least expect it very, read overly, difficult.

Wishing you the best 💜🤗💐

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Hi @Former-Member

How are you? Hope you're doing ok.

I'm back in hospital so I'm safe and trying to work through my most pressing issues.

I can't help but feeling that I might lose all in my urgent life, just because of people messing with my head and body when I was younger. It makes me very angry. And I can clearly see now the stigma and discrimination attached to being open. For me it's not just disappointing but heartbreaking.

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@Former-Member. ♥♥♥♥

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Hi @Former-Member,

sorry you are back in hospital but I'm glad you are safe there. I know you can't see it but one day you'll be through this darkness and life will return. I can't imagine the feel g of heartbreak you must have experienced as I've been hiding myself from the real world for so long. It's not a strategy I'd advise. I just wanted to say that I believe in you and that their is so much hope that life will get better at some point.

I've had a really rough time of late too wondering what it's all about but I'm hanging on in there and hanging on to hope that it will get better for me at some stage too.

Sending hugs 💜🤗

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