34 and diagnosed with ADHD

Hey everyone (or anyone)

I’m new here, i don’t know how these things work but I’ve been trying to finally put some of this into words. It’s been a few a couple months and I still don’t really know how I feel or what I want to say, but I’ll try.

(Sorry if this is to long or the wrong place to be)

A bit of background: I was diagnosed with depression in 2005 when I was 13, anxiety in 2012 and bipolar II in 2023. Then in 2025 and 2026, two different psychiatrists told me they didn’t think bipolar II fit at all, and were shocked I’d been diagnosed with it.

Finally, in 2026 at 34, I was diagnosed with ADHD. There’s also been some talk about possible autism or something, but I’m not sure I’m ready to go down that rabbit hole yet.

Getting diagnosed has given me a different way to look back at my life, and a lot of things finally make a bit of sense. I’ve generally seemed “normal” on the outside most my life, despite being fairly depressed a lot of the time (I definitely had serious good times though)

I’ve had relationships, jobs and friends, and being in a band when I was younger helped me build some confidence…

but socialising would often take a huge toll once I was home alone. I would get stuck in a loop of anxiety, guilt and overthinking and just genuinely think I was a bad person for needing time and space.

And relationships always seemed to break down in the same sorts of ways, it takes it’s toll on other people when you don’t have your life sorted and have no idea what your emotions are doing at any one moment.

Anyway…

I’ve been struggling at coming to terms with all this bleeeeehhhhbbbb 🙃

Im mostly good mentally at the moment, just pretty emotional when I think about some of my life.

Are they places and people I can talk to specifically about this?

maybe people just like me? because I know you’re out there

If you got this far, thank you so much. I needed to say all that and help get it off my chest.